Wieland's Maddness by Charles Brockden Brown
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Carwin's agency was here easily recognized .I had besought him to interpose in my defense .He had flown .I had imagined him deaf to my prayer, and resolute to_see me perish; yet he disappeared merely to devise and execute the means of_my relief .

Why did he not forbear when_this end was accomplished ? Why did his misjudging zeal and accursed precipitation overpass that limit ? Or meant he thus to crown the scene, and conduct his inscrutable plots to_this consummation ?

Such ideas were the fruit of subsequent contemplation .This moment was pregnant with fate .I had no power to reason . in_the career of_my tempestuous thoughts, rent into pieces as my mind was by accumulating horrors, Carwin was unseen and unsuspected .I partook of Wieland's credulity, shook with_his amazement, and panted with_his awe .

Silence took place for amoment: so_much as allowed the attention to recover its post .Then new sounds were uttered from above:--

"Man of errors ! cease to cherish thy delusion; not heaven or hell, but thy senses, have misled thee to commit these acts .Shake off thy frenzy, and ascend into rational and human .Be lunatic no longer ."

My brother opened his lips to_speak .His tone was terrific and faint .He muttered an appeal to heaven . it_was difficult to comprehend the theme of_his inquiries .They implied doubt as_to_the nature of_the impulse that hitherto had guided him, and questioned whether he had acted in consequence of insane perceptions .

to_these interrogatories the voice, which now seemed to hover at his shoulder, loudly answered in_the affirmative .Then uninterrupted silence ensued .

Fallen from_his lofty and heroic station; now finally restored to_the perception of truth; weighed to earth by_the recollection of_his own deeds; consoled no longer by aconsciousness of rectitude for_the loss of offspring and wife,--a loss for_which he_was indebted to_his own misguided hand,--Wieland was transformed at once into_the MAN OF SORROWS !

He reflected not that credit should_be as reasonably denied to_the last as_to any former intimation; that one might as justly be ascribed to erring or diseased senses as_the other . he_saw not that_this discovery in no degree affected the integrity of_his conduct; that his motives had lost none of_their claims to_the homage of mankind; that_the preference of supreme good, and_the boundless energy of duty, were undiminished in_his bosom .

it_is_not for_me to pursue him through_the ghastly changes of_his countenance .Words he had none .Now he sat upon_the floor, motionless in all his limbs, with_his eyes glazed and fixed, amonument of woe .

Anon aspirit of tempestuous but undesigning activity seized him .He rose from_his place and strode across the floor, tottering and at random .His eyes were without moisture, and gleamed with_the fire that consumed his vitals .The muscles of_his face were agitated by convulsions .His lips moved, but no sound escaped him .

That nature should long sustain this conflict was not to_be believed .My state was little different from_that of_my brother .I entered, as it were, into his thoughts .My heart was visited and rent by his pangs ."Oh that thy frenzy had never been cured ! that thy madness, with its blissful visions, would return ! or, if that_must not be, that thy scene would hasten to aclose ! --that death would cover thee with_his oblivion !

"What can i_wish for thee ? Thou who hast vied with_the great Preacher of thy faith in sanctity of motives, and in elevation above sensual and selfish ! Thou whom thy fate has changed into parricide and savage ! Can i_wish for_the continuance of thy being ? No ."

For atime his movements seemed destitute of purpose .If he walked; if he turned; if his fingers were entwined with each_other; if his hands were pressed against opposite sides of_his head with aforce sufficient to crush it into pieces; it_was to tear his mind from self-contemplation; to waste his thoughts on external objects .

Speedily this train was broken .abeam appeared to_be darted into his mind which gave apurpose to_his efforts .An avenue to escape presented itself; and now he eagerly gazed about him .When my thoughts became engaged by his demeanor, my fingers were stretched as by amechanical force, and_the knife, no longer heeded or of use, escaped from my grasp and fell unperceived on_the floor .His eye now lighted upon it; he seized it with_the quickness of thought .

I shrieked aloud, but it_was too late .He plunged it to_the hilt in_his neck; and_his life instantly escaped with_the stream that gushed from_the wound . he_was stretched at my feet; and my hands were sprinkled with_his blood as he fell .

Such was thy last deed, my brother ! For aspectacle like this_was it my fate to_be reserved ! Thy eyes were closed--thy face ghastly with death--thy arms, and_the spot where thou lyedst, floated in thy life's blood ! These images have_not for amoment forsaken me .Till I_am breathless and cold, they_must continue to hover in my sight .

Carwin, as I_said, had left the room; but he still lingered in_the house .My voice summoned him to my aid; but I scarcely noticed his reentrance, and now faintly recollect his terrified looks, his broken exclamations, his vehement avowals of innocence, the effusions of_his pity for_me, and_his offers of assistance .

I_did_not listen--I answered him not--I ceased to upbraid or accuse .His guilt was apoint to_which i_was indifferent .Ruffian or devil, black as hell or bright as angels, thenceforth he_was nothing to_me . i_was incapable of sparing alook or athought from_the ruin that was spread at my feet .

When he left me, i_was scarcely conscious of any variation in_the scene .He informed the inhabitants of_the hut of what had passed, and_they flew to_the spot .Careless of_his own safety, he hasted to_the city to inform my friends of_my condition .

My uncle speedily arrived at_the house .The body of Wieland was removed from my presence, and_they supposed that i_would follow it; but no, my home is ascertained; here I_have taken up my rest, and never will I go hence, till, like Wieland, I_am borne to my grave .

Importunity was tried in vain .They threatened to remove me by violence,--nay, violence was used; but my soul prizes too dearly this little roof to endure to_be bereaved of it .Force should_not prevail when_the hoary locks and supplicating tears of_my uncle were ineffectual .My repugnance to move gave birth to ferociousness and frenzy when force was employed, and_they were obliged to consent to my return .

They besought me--they remonstrated--they appealed to every duty that connected me with_him that made me and with my fellow-men--in vain .While I live i_will_not go hence .Have I not fulfilled my destiny ?

Why will ye torment me with your reasonings and reproofs ? Can ye restore to_me the hope of_my better days ? Can ye give_me back Catharine and her babes ? Can ye recall to life him who died at my feet ?

i_will eat-- i_will drink-- i_will lie down and rise up--at your bidding; all I ask is_the choice of_my abode .What is_there unreasonable in_this demand ? Shortly will I be at peace . this_is_the spot which I_have chosen in_which to breathe my last sigh .Deny me not, I beseech you, so slight aboon .

Talk not to_me, O my reverend friend ! of Carwin .He has told thee his tale, and thou exculpatest him from all direct concern in_the fate of Wieland .This scene of havoc was produced by an illusion of_the senses .Be it so; I care not from what source these disasters have flowed; it suffices that they_have swallowed up our hopes and_our existence .

What his agency began, his agency conducted to aclose .He intended, by_the final effort of_his power, to rescue me and to banish his illusions from my brother .Such is his tale, concerning the truth of_which I care not .Henceforth I foster but one wish: I ask only quick deliverance from life and all the ills that attend it .

Go, wretch ! torment me not with thy presence and thy prayers .-- Forgive thee ? Will that avail thee when thy fateful hour shall arrive ? Be thou acquitted at thy own tribunal, and thou needest not fear the verdict of others .If thy guilt be capable of blacker hues, if hitherto thy conscience be without stain, thy crime will_be made more flagrant by thus violating my retreat .Take thyself away from my sight if thou wouldst not behold my death !

Thou art gone ! murmuring and reluctant ! And now my repose is coming--my work is done !


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