Wieland's Maddness by Charles Brockden Brown
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amovement equally solemn he stooped and took it up .He placed the blade in different positions, scrutinizing it accurately, and maintaining, at_the same time, aprofound silence .

Again he looked at me; but all that vehemence and loftiness of spirit which had so lately characterized his features were flown .Fallen muscles, aforehead contracted into folds, eyes dim with unbidden drops, and aruefulness of aspect which no words can describe, were now visible .

His looks touched into energy the same sympathies in me, and I poured forth aflood of tears .This passion was quickly checked by fear, which had now no longer my own but his safety for their object .I watched his deportment in silence . at_length he spoke:--

"Sister," said he, in an accent mournful and mild, " I_have acted poorly my part in_this world .What thinkest thou ? Shall I not do better in_the next ? "

I_could make no answer .The mildness of_his tone astonished and encouraged me .I continued to regard him with wistful and anxious looks .

" i_think," resumed he, " i_will try .My wife and my babes have_gone before .Happy wretches ! I_have sent you to repose, and ought not to linger behind ."

These words had ameaning sufficiently intelligible .I looked at_the open knife in_his hand and shuddered, but knew not how to_prevent the deed which I dreaded .He quickly noticed my fears, and comprehended them .Stretching toward me his hand, with an air of increasing mildness, "Take it," said he; "fear not for thy own sake, nor for mine .The cup is gone by, and its transient inebriation is succeeded by_the soberness of truth .

"Thou angel whom i_was wont to worship ! fearest thou, my sister, for thy life ? Once it was_the scope of_my labors to destroy thee, but i_was prompted to_the deed by heaven; such, at_least, was my belief .Thinkest thou that thy death was sought to gratify malevolence ? No . I_am pure from all stain .I believed that my God was my mover !

"Neither thee nor myself have I cause to injure . I_have_done my duty; and surely there_is merit in having sacrificed to_that all that_is dear to_the heart of man .If adevil has deceived me, he_came in_the habit of an angel .If I erred, it_was not my judgment that deceived me, but my senses .In thy sight, Being of beings ! I_am still pure .Still will I look for_my reward in thy justice ! "

Did my ears truly report these sounds ? If I_did_not err, my brother was restored to just perceptions . he_knew himself to_have_been betrayed to_the murder of_his wife and children, to_have_been the victim of infernal artifice; yet he_found consolation in_the rectitude of_his motives . he_was not devoid of sorrow, for this_was written on_his countenance; but his soul was tranquil and sublime .

Perhaps this_was merely atransition of_his former madness into anew shape .Perhaps he had_not yet awakened to_the memory of_the horrors which he had perpetrated .Infatuated wretch that i_was ! To set myself up as amodel by_which to judge of_my heroic brother ! My reason taught me that his conclusions were right; but, conscious of_the impotence of reason over my own conduct, conscious of_my cowardly rashness and my criminal despair, I doubted whether anyone could_be steadfast and wise .

Such was my weakness, that even in_the midst of_these thoughts my mind glided into abhorrence of Carwin, and I uttered, in alow voice, "O Carwin ! Carwin ! what hast thou to answer for ? "

My brother immediately noticed the involuntary exclamation ."Clara ! " said he, "be thyself .Equity used to_be atheme for thy eloquence .Reduce its lessons to practice, and be just to_that unfortunate man .The instrument has_done its work, and I_am satisfied .

"I thank thee, my God, for_this last illumination ! My enemy is thine also .I deemed him to_be aman,--the man with_whom I_have often communed; but now thy goodness has unveiled to_me his true nature . as_the performer of thy behests, he_is my friend ."

My heart began now to misgive me .His mournful aspect had gradually yielded place to aserene brow .anew soul appeared to actuate his frame, and_his eyes to beam with preternatural luster .These symptoms did_not abate, and he continued:--

"Clara, I_must not leave thee in doubt . I_know not what brought about thy interview with_the being whom thou callest Carwin .For atime i_was guilty of thy error, and deduced from_his incoherent confessions that I had_been made the victim of human malice .He left us at my bidding, and I put up aprayer that my doubts should_be removed .Thy eyes were shut and thy ears sealed to_the vision that answered my prayer .

" i_was indeed deceived .The form thou hast seen was_the incarnation of ademon .The visage and voice which urged me to_the sacrifice of_my family were his .Now he personates ahuman form; then he_was environed with_the luster of heaven .

"Clara," he continued, advancing closer to_me, "thy death must come .This minister is evil, but he from whom his commission was received is God .Submit then with all thy wonted resignation to adecree that cannot_be reversed or resisted .Mark the clock .Three minutes are allowed to thee, in_which to_call up thy fortitude and prepare thee for thy doom ." There he stopped .

Even now, when_this scene exists only in memory, when life and all its functions have sunk into torpor, my pulse throbs, and my hairs uprise; my brows are knit, as then, and I gaze around me in distraction . i_was unconquerably averse to death; but death, imminent and full of agony as_that which_was threatened, was nothing . this_was not the only or chief inspirer of_my fears .

For him, not for_myself, was my soul tormented . I_might die, and no crime, surpassing the reach of mercy, would pursue me to_the presence of_my Judge; but my assassin would survive to contemplate his deed, and_that assassin was Wieland !

Wings to bear me beyond his reach I had_not . I_could_not vanish with athought .The door was open, but my murderer was interposed between that and me .Of self-defense i_was incapable .The frenzy that lately prompted me to blood was gone: my state was desperate; my rescue was impossible .

The weight of_these accumulated thoughts could_not_be borne .My sight became confused; my limbs were seized with convulsion; I spoke, but my words were half formed:--

"Spare me, my brother ! Look down, righteous Judge ! snatch me from_this fate ! take away this fury from_him, or turn it elsewhere ! "

Such was_the agony of_my thoughts that I noticed not steps entering my apartment .Supplicating eyes were cast upward; but when my prayer was breathed I once more wildly gazed at_the door .aform met my sight; I shuddered as if_the God whom I invoked were present . it_was Carwin that again intruded, and who stood before me, erect in attitude and steadfast in look !

The sight of him awakened new and rapid thoughts .His recent tale was remembered; his magical transitions and mysterious energy of voice .Whether he were infernal or miraculous or human, there_was no power and no need to decide .Whether the contriver or not of_this spell, he_was able to unbind it, and to_check the fury of_my brother .He had ascribed to himself intentions not malignant .Here now was afforded atest of_his truth .Let him interpose, as from above; revoke the savage decree which the madness of Wieland has assigned to heaven, and extinguish forever this passion for blood !

My mind detected at aglance this avenue to safety .The recommendations it possessed thronged as it were together, and made but one impression on my intellect .Remoter effects and collateral dangers I_saw not .Perhaps the pause of an instant had sufficed to_call them up .The improbability that_the influence which governed Wieland was external or human; the tendency of_this stratagem to sanction so fatal an error or substitute amore destructive rage in place of_this; the insufficiency of Carwin's mere muscular forces to counteract the efforts and restrain the fury of Wieland, might, at asecond glance, have_been discovered; but no second glance was allowed .My first thought hurried me to action, and, fixing my eyes upon Carwin, I exclaimed,--

"O wretch ! once more hast thou come ? Let it be to abjure thy malice; to counterwork this hellish stratagem; to_turn from me and from my brother this desolating rage !

"Testify thy innocence or thy remorse; exert the powers which pertain to thee, whatever they be, to_turn aside this ruin .Thou art the author of_these horrors ! What have I done to deserve thus to die ? How have I merited this unrelenting persecution ? I adjure thee, by_that God whose voice thou hast dared to counterfeit, to save my life !

"Wilt thou then go ? --leave me ! Succorless ! "

Carwin listened to my entreaties unmoved, and turned from me . he_seemed to hesitate amoment,--then glided through_the door .Rage and despair stifled my utterance .The interval of respite was past; the pangs reserved for_me by Wieland were_not to_be endured; my thoughts rushed again into anarchy .Having received the knife from_his hand, I held it loosely and without regard; but now it seized again my attention, and I grasped it with force .

he_seemed to notice not the entrance or exit of Carwin .My gesture and_the murderous weapon appeared to_have escaped his notice .His silence was unbroken; his eye, fixed upon_the clock for atime, was now withdrawn; fury kindled in every feature; all that was human in_his face gave way to an expression supernatural and tremendous . I_felt my left arm within his grasp .

Even now I hesitated to strike .I shrunk from_his assault, but in vain .

Here let me desist .Why should I rescue this event from oblivion ? Why should I paint this detestable conflict ? why_not terminate at once this series of horrors ? --Hurry to_the verge of_the precipice, and cast myself forever beyond remembrance and beyond hope ?

Still I live; with_this load upon my breast; with_this phantom to pursue my steps; with adders lodged in my bosom, and stinging me to madness; still I consent to live !

Yes ! i_will rise above the sphere of mortal passions; i_will spurn at_the cowardly remorse that bids me seek impunity in silence, or comfort in forgetfulness .My nerves shall be new-strung to_the task .Have I not resolved ? i_will die .The gulf before me is inevitable and near . i_will die, but then only when my tale is at an end .

III

My right hand, grasping the unseen knife, was still disengaged . it_was lifted to strike .All my strength was exhausted but what_was sufficient to_the performance of_this deed .Already was_the energy awakened and_the impulse given that should bear the fatal steel to_his heart, when--Wieland shrunk back; his hand was withdrawn .Breathless with affright and desperation, I stood, freed from_his grasp; unassailed; untouched .

Thus long had the power which controlled the scene forborne to interfere: but now his might was irresistible; and Wieland in amoment was disarmed of all his purposes .avoice, louder than human organs could produce, shriller than language can depict, burst from_the ceiling and commanded him--TO HOLD !

Trouble and dismay succeeded to_the steadfastness that had lately been displayed in_the looks of Wieland .His eyes roved from one quarter to another, with an expression of doubt . he_seemed to wait for afurther intimation .

Carwin's agency was here easily recognized


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