Wieland's Maddness by Charles Brockden Brown
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.Wieland listened with deep attention .Having finished, "This," continued I, " is_the truth . you_see in what circumstances an interview took place between Carwin and me .He remained for hours in my closet, and for some minutes in my chamber .He departed without haste or interruption .If Pleyel marked him as he left the house, (and it_is_not impossible that he_did,) inferences injurious to my character might suggest themselves to him .In admitting them, he_gave proofs of less discernment and less candor than I once ascribed to him ."

"His proofs," said Wieland, after aconsiderable pause, "are different .That he_should_be deceived is_not possible .That he himself is_not the deceiver could_not_be believed, if his testimony were_not inconsistent with yours; but the doubts which I entertained are now removed .Your tale, some parts of it, is marvelous; the voice which exclaimed against your rashness in approaching the closet, your persisting, notwithstanding that prohibition, your belief that I was_the ruffian, and your subsequent conduct, are believed by me, because I_have known you from childhood, because athousand instances have attested your veracity, and because nothing less_than my own hearing and vision would convince me, in opposition to her own assertions, that my sister had fallen into wickedness like this ."

I threw my arms around him and bathed his cheek with my tears ."That," said I, "is spoken like my brother .But what_are the proofs ? "

He replied, "Pleyel informed me that, in going to your house, his attention was attracted by two voices .The persons speaking sat beneath the bank, out of sight .These persons, judging by their voices, were Carwin and you . i_will_not repeat the dialogue . if_my sister was_the female, Pleyel was justified in concluding you to_be indeed one_of_the_most profligate of women .Hence his accusations of you, and_his efforts to obtain my concurrence to aplan by_which an eternal separation should_be brought about between my sister and this man ."

I_made Wieland repeat this recital .Here indeed was atale to_fill me with terrible foreboding .I had vainly thought that my safety could_be sufficiently secured by doors and bars, but this_is afoe from whose grasp no power of divinity can save me ! His artifices will ever lay my fame and happiness at his mercy .How shall I counterwork his plots or detect his coadjutor ? He has taught some vile and abandoned female to mimic my voice .Pleyel's ears were the witnesses of_my dishonor . this_is_the midnight assignation to_which he alluded .Thus is_the silence he maintained when attempting to open the door of_my chamber, accounted for .He supposed me absent, and meant, perhaps, had my apartment been accessible, to leave in_it some accusing memorial .

SECOND PART

I

[ as_this part opens, the unhappy Clara is describing her hurried return to_the same ill-fated abode at Mettingen .Hence kind friends had borne her after_the catastrophe of her brother Wieland's "transformation ." this_was the crowning horror of all: the morbid fanatic, prepared by gloomy anticipations of some terrible sacrifice to_be demanded in_the name of religion, had found himself goaded to blind fury, by amysterious compelling voice, to yield up_to God the lives of_his beloved wife and family; and had done the awful deed !

Though chained in_his madhouse, he persists in_his delusion; insists that_it still remains for him to sacrifice his sister Clara; and twice breaks away in wild efforts to_find and destroy her .]

i_took an irregular path which led me to my own house .All was vacant and forlorn .asmall enclosure near which the path led was_the burying ground belonging to_the family .This i_was obliged to_pass .Once I had intended to enter it, and ponder on_the emblems and inscriptions which my uncle had caused to_be made on_the tombs of Catharine and her children; but now my heart faltered as I approached, and I hastened forward that distance might conceal it from my view .

When I approached the recess, my heart again sunk .I averted my eyes, and left it behind me as quickly as possible .Silence reigned through my habitation, and adarkness which closed doors and shutters produced .Every object was connected with mine or my brother's history .I passed the entry, mounted the stair, and unlocked the door of_my chamber . it_was with difficulty that I curbed my fancy and smothered my fears .Slight movements and casual sounds were transformed into beckoning shadows and calling shapes .

I proceeded to_the closet .I opened and looked round it with fearfulness .All things were in their accustomed order .I sought and found the manuscript where i_was used to deposit it .This being secured, there_was nothing to detain me; yet I stood and contemplated awhile the furniture and walls of_my chamber .I remembered how long this apartment had_been asweet and tranquil asylum; I compared its former state with its present dreariness, and reflected that I now beheld it for_the_last time .

Here it was_that the incomprehensible behavior of Carwin was witnessed; this the stage on_which that enemy of man showed himself for amoment unmasked .Here the menaces of murder were wafted to my ear; and here these menaces were executed .

These thoughts had atendency to_take from me my self-command .My feeble limbs refused to support me, and I sunk upon achair .Incoherent and half-articulate exclamations escaped my lips .The name of Carwin was uttered and eternal woes--woes like that which his malice had entailed upon us--were heaped upon him .I invoked all-seeing heaven to drag to light and punish this betrayer, and accused its providence for having thus long delayed the retribution that was due to so enormous aguilt .

I_have said that_the window shutters were closed .afeeble light, however, found entrance through_the crevices .asmall window illuminated the closet, and, the door being closed, adim ray streamed through_the keyhole .akind of twilight was thus created, sufficient for_the purposes of vision, but, at_the same time, involving all minuter objects in obscurity .

This darkness suited the color of_my thoughts .I sickened at_the remembrance of_the past .The prospect of_the future excited my loathing .I muttered, in alow voice, "Why should I live longer ? Why should I drag amiserable being ? All for whom I ought to live have perished .Am I not myself hunted to death ? "

at_that moment my despair suddenly became vigorous .My nerves were no longer unstrung .My powers, that had long been deadened, were revived .My bosom swelled with asudden energy, and_the conviction darted through my mind, that to end my torments was, at once, practicable and wise .

I_knew how to_find way to_the recesses of life . I_could use alancet with some skill, and could distinguish between vein and artery .By piercing deep into_the latter, i_should shun the evils which the future had in store for_me, and take refuge from my woes in quiet death .

I started on my feet, for_my feebleness was gone, and hasted to_the closet .alancet and other small instruments were preserved in acase which I had deposited here .Inattentive as i_was to foreign considerations, my ears were still open to any sound of mysterious import that should occur . i_thought I heard astep in_the entry .My purpose was suspended, and I cast an eager glance at my chamber door, which_was open .No one appeared, unless the shadow which I discerned upon_the floor was_the outline of aman . if_it were, i_was authorized to suspect that some one was posted close to_the entrance, who possibly had overheard my exclamations .

My teeth chattered, and awild confusion took the place of_my momentary calm .Thus it_was when aterrific visage had disclosed itself on aformer night .Thus it_was when_the evil destiny of Wieland assumed the lineaments of something human .What horrid apparition was preparing to blast my sight ?

Still I listened and gazed .Not long, for_the shadow moved; afoot, unshapely and huge, was thrust forward; aform advanced from its concealment, and stalked into_the room . it_was Carwin !

While I had breath, I shrieked .While I had power over my muscles, I motioned with my hand that he_should vanish .My exertions could_not last long: I sunk into afit .

Oh that_this grateful oblivion had lasted forever ! Too quickly I recovered my senses .The power of distinct vision was no sooner restored to_me, than this hateful form again presented itself, and I once more relapsed .

asecond time, untoward nature recalled me from_the sleep of death . I_found myself stretched upon_the bed .When I had power to look up, I remembered only that I had cause to fear .My distempered fancy fashioned to itself no distinguishable image .I threw alanguid glance round me: once more my eyes lighted upon Carwin .

he_was seated on_the floor, his back rested against the wall; his knees were drawn up, and_his face was buried in_his hands .That his station was at some distance, that his attitude was not menacing, that his ominous visage was concealed, may account for_my now escaping ashock violent as_those which were past .I withdrew my eyes, but was not again deserted by my senses .

On perceiving that I had recovered my sensibility, he lifted his head .This motion attracted my attention .His countenance was mild, but sorrow and astonishment sat upon his features .I averted my eyes and feebly exclaimed, "Oh, fly ! --fly far and forever ! -- I_cannot behold you and live ! "

he_did_not rise upon his feet, but clasped his hands, and said, in atone of deprecation, " i_will fly . I_am become afiend, the sight of whom destroys .Yet tell me my offense ! you_have linked curses with my name; you ascribe to_me amalice monstrous and infernal .I look around: all is loneliness and desert ! This house and your brother's are solitary and dismantled ! You die away at_the sight of me ! My fear whispers that some deed of horror has_been perpetrated; that I_am the undesigning cause ."

What language was_this ? Had he not avowed himself aravisher ? had_not this chamber witnessed his atrocious purposes ? I besought him with new vehemence to_go .

He lifted his eyes:--"Great heaven ! what have I done ? i_think I_know the extent of_my offenses . I_have acted, but my actions have possibly effected more than I designed .This fear has brought me back from my retreat .I come to repair the evil of_which my rashness was_the cause, and to_prevent more evil .I come to confess my errors ."

"Wretch ! " I cried, when my suffocating emotions would permit me to_speak, "the ghosts of_my sister and her children,--do they not rise to accuse thee ? Who was_it that blasted the intellect of Wieland ? Who was_it that urged him to fury and guided him to murder ? Who, but thou and_the devil, with_whom thou art confederated ? "

at_these words anew spirit pervaded his countenance .His eyes once more appealed to heaven ."If I_have memory--if I_have being-- I_am innocent .I intended no ill; but my folly, indirectly and remotely, may_have caused it .But what words are these ? Your brother lunatic ! His children dead ! "

What should I infer from_this deportment ? was_the ignorance which these words implied real or pretended ? Yet how could I imagine amere human agency in_these events ? But, if_the influence was preternatural or maniacal in my brother's case, they_must_be equally so in my own .Then I remembered that_the voice exerted was to save me from Carwin's attempts .These ideas tended to abate my abhorrence of_this man, and to detect the absurdity of_my accusations


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