Wieland's Maddness by Charles Brockden Brown
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adesign so sordid as pillage ? if_this were his view, there were no means in my power to frustrate it .It behooved me to seize the first opportunity to escape; but, if_my escape were supposed by my enemy to_have_been already effected, no asylum was more secure than_the present .How could my passage from_the house be accomplished without noises that might incite him to pursue me ?

Utterly at aloss to account for_his going into Pleyel's chamber, I waited in instant expectation of hearing him come forth .All, however, was profoundly still .I listened in vain for aconsiderable period to catch the sound of_the door when it should again be opened . there_was no other avenue by_which he_could escape, but adoor which led into_the girl's chamber .Would any evil from_this quarter befall the girl ?

Hence arose anew train of apprehensions .They merely added to_the turbulence and agony of_my reflections .Whatever evil impended over her, I had no power to avert it .Seclusion and silence were the only means of saving myself from_the perils of_this fatal night .What solemn vows did I put up, that, if i_should once more behold the light of day, i_would never trust myself again within_the threshold of_this dwelling !

Minute lingered after minute, but no token was given that Carwin had returned to_the passage .What, I again asked, could detain him in_this room ? was_it possible that he had returned, and glided unperceived away ? i_was speedily aware of_the difficulty that attended an enterprise like this; and yet, as_if by_that means I were capable of gaining any information on_that head, I cast anxious looks from_the window .

The object that first attracted my attention was ahuman figure standing on_the edge of_the bank .Perhaps my penetration was assisted by my hopes .Be that as_it_will, the figure of Carwin was clearly distinguishable . from_the obscurity of_my station, it_was impossible that i_should_be discerned by him; and yet he scarcely suffered me to catch aglimpse of him .He turned and went down the steep, which in_this part was not difficult to_be scaled .

My conjecture, then, had_been right .Carwin has softly opened the door, descended the stairs, and issued forth .That I should_not have overheard his steps was only less incredible than that my eyes had deceived me .But what_was now to_be_done ? The house was at_length delivered from_this detested inmate .By one avenue might he again reenter . was_it not wise to bar the lower door ? Perhaps he had gone out by_the kitchen door . for_this end, he_must_have passed through Judith's chamber .These entrances being closed and bolted, as great security was gained as was compatible with my lonely condition .

The propriety of_these measures was too manifest not to_make me struggle successfully with my fears .Yet I opened my own door with_the utmost caution, and descended as_if I were afraid that Carwin had_been still immured in Pleyel's chamber .The outer door was ajar .I shut it with trembling eagerness, and drew every bolt that appended to_it .I then passed with light and less cautious steps through_the parlor, but was surprised to discover that_the kitchen door was secure . i_was compelled to acquiesce in_the first conjecture that Carwin had escaped through_the entry .

My heart was now somewhat eased of_the load of apprehension .I returned once more to my chamber, the door of_which i_was careful to lock . it_was no time to_think of repose .The moonlight began already to fade before_the light of_the day .The approach of morning was betokened by_the usual signals .I mused upon_the events of_this night, and determined to_take up my abode henceforth at my brother's .Whether i_should inform him of what had happened was aquestion which seemed to demand some consideration .My safety unquestionably required that i_should abandon my present habitation .

As my thoughts began to flow with fewer impediments, the image of Pleyel, and_the dubiousness of_his condition, again recurred to_me .I again ran over the possible causes of_his absence on_the preceding day .My mind was attuned to melancholy .I dwelt, with an obstinacy for_which I_could_not account, on_the idea of_his death .I painted to myself his struggles with_the billows, and_his last appearance .I imagined myself amidnight wanderer on_the shore, and to_have stumbled on_his corpse, which the tide had cast up .These dreary images affected me even to tears .I endeavored not to restrain them .They imparted arelief which I had_not anticipated .The more copiously they flowed, the more did my general sensations appear to subside into calm, and acertain restlessness give way to repose .

Perhaps, relieved by_this effusion, the slumber so_much wanted might_have stolen on my senses, had there been no new cause of alarm .

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i_was aroused from_this stupor by sounds that evidently arose in_the next chamber . was_it possible that I had_been mistaken in_the figure which I had seen on_the bank ? or had Carwin, by some inscrutable means, penetrated once more into_this chamber ? The opposite door opened; footsteps came forth, and_the person, advancing to mine, knocked .

So unexpected an incident robbed me of all presence of mind, and, starting up, I involuntarily exclaimed, "Who is_there ? " An answer was immediately given .The voice, to my inexpressible astonishment, was Pleyel's .

" it_is I . have_you risen ? If you_have_not, make haste; i_want three minutes' conversation with_you in_the parlor . i_will wait for_you there ." Saying this, he retired from_the door .

Should I confide in_the testimony of_my ears ? if_that were true, it_was Pleyel that had_been hitherto immured in_the opposite chamber; he whom my rueful fancy had depicted in so_many ruinous and ghastly shapes; he whose footsteps had_been listened to with_such inquietude ! what_is man, that knowledge is so sparingly conferred upon him ! that his heart should_be wrung with distress, and_his frame be exanimated with fear, though his safety be encompassed with impregnable walls ! what_are the bounds of human imbecility ! He that warned me of_the presence of_my foe refused the intimation by_which so_many racking fears would_have_been precluded .

Yet who_would_have imagined the arrival of Pleyel at such an hour ? His tone was desponding and anxious .Why this unseasonable summons ? and why this hasty departure ? Some tidings he, perhaps, bears of mysterious and unwelcome import .

My impatience would_not allow me to consume much time in deliberation; I hastened down .Pleyel I_found standing at awindow, with eyes cast down as in meditation, and arms folded on_his breast .Every line in_his countenance was pregnant with sorrow .To this_was added acertain wanness and air of fatigue .The last time I had seen him appearances had_been the reverse of_these . i_was startled at_the change .The first impulse was to question him as_to_the cause .This impulse was supplanted by some degree of confusion, flowing from aconsciousness that love had too large, and, as it might prove, aperceptible, share in creating this impulse . i_was silent .

Presently be raised his eyes and fixed them upon me . I_read in_them an anguish altogether ineffable .Never had I witnessed alike demeanor in Pleyel .Never, indeed, had I observed ahuman countenance in_which grief was more legibly inscribed . he_seemed struggling for utterance; but, his struggles being fruitless, he shook his head and turned away from me .

My impatience would_not allow me to_be longer silent ."What," said I, "for heaven's sake, my friend,-- what_is the matter ? "

He started at_the sound of_my voice .His looks, for amoment, became convulsed with an emotion very different from grief .His accents were broken with rage:--

"The matter ! O wretch ! --thus exquisitely fashioned,--on whom nature seemed to_have exhausted all her graces; with charms so awful and so pure ! how art thou fallen ! From what height fallen ! aruin so complete,--so unheard of ! "

His words were again choked by emotion .Grief and pity were again mingled in_his features .He resumed, in atone half suffocated by sobs:--

"But why should I upbraid thee ? Could I restore to thee what thou hast lost, efface this cursed stain, snatch thee from_the jaws of_this fiend, i_would do_it .Yet what_will avail my efforts ? I_have_not arms with_which to contend with so consummate, so frightful adepravity .

"Evidence less_than this_would only have excited resentment and scorn .The wretch who_should_have breathed asuspicion injurious to thy honor would_have_been regarded without anger: not hatred or envy could_have prompted him; it would merely be an argument of madness .That my eyes, that my ears, should bear witness to thy fall ! By no other way could detestable conviction be imparted .

"Why do I summon thee to_this conference ? Why expose myself to thy derision ? Here admonition and entreaty are vain .Thou knowest him already for amurderer and thief . i_thought to_have_been the first to disclose to thee his infamy; to_have warned thee of_the pit to_which thou art hastening; but thy eyes are open in vain .Oh, foul and insupportable disgrace !

" there_is but one path . I_know you_will disappear together .In thy ruin, how will the felicity and honor of multitudes be involved ! But it must come .This scene shall_not_be blotted by his presence . no_doubt thou wilt shortly see thy detested paramour .This scene will_be again polluted by amidnight assignation .Inform him of_his dangers; tell him that his crimes are known; let him fly far and instantly from_this spot, if he desires to avoid the fate which menaced him in Ireland .

"And wilt thou not stay behind ? But shame upon my weakness ! I_know not what i_would say . I_have_done what I purposed .To stay longer, to expostulate, to beseech, to enumerate the consequences of thy act,--what end can it serve but to blazon thy infamy and embitter our woes ? And yet, oh, think--think ere it be too late-- on_the distresses which thy flight will entail upon us;


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