Wieland's Maddness by Charles Brockden Brown
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.Environed by_the arms of_this protection, all artifices will_be frustrated and all malice repelled ."

Here succeeded anew pause . i_was still observant of every gesture and look .The tranquil solemnity that had lately possessed his countenance gave way to anew expression .All now was trepidation and anxiety .

" I_must_be gone," said he, in afaltering accent ."Why do I linger here ? i_will_not ask your forgiveness . I_see that your terrors are invincible .Your pardon will_be extorted by fear, and not dictated by compassion . I_must fly from_you forever .He that could plot against your honor must expect from_you and your friends persecution and death . I_must doom myself to endless exile ."

Saying this, he hastily left the room .I listened while he descended the stairs, and, unbolting the outer door, went forth . I_did_not follow him with my eyes, as_the moonlight would_have enabled me to_do .Relieved by his absence, and exhausted by_the conflict of_my fears, I threw myself on achair, and resigned myself to_those bewildering ideas which incidents like these could_not fail to_produce .

V

Order could_not readily be introduced into my thoughts .The voice still rung in my ears .Every accent that was uttered by Carwin was fresh in my remembrance .His unwelcome approach, the recognition of_his person, his hasty departure, produced acomplex impression on my mind which no words can delineate .I strove to_give aslower motion to my thoughts, and to regulate aconfusion which became painful; but my efforts were nugatory .I covered my eyes with my hand, and sat, I_know not how long, without power to arrange or utter my conceptions .

I had remained for hours, as I believed, in absolute solitude .No thought of personal danger had molested my tranquillity .I had made no preparation for defense . what_was it that suggested the design of perusing my father's manuscript ? If, instead of_this, I had retired to bed and to sleep, to what fate might I not have_been reserved .The ruffian, who_must almost have suppressed his breathings to screen himself from discovery, would_have noticed this signal, and i_should_have awakened only to perish with affright, and to abhor myself .Could I_have remained unconscious of_my danger ? Could I_have tranquilly slept in_the midst of so deadly asnare ?

And who was he that threatened to destroy me ? By what means could he hide himself in_this closet ? Surely he_is gifted with supernatural power .Such is_the enemy of whose attempts i_was forewarned .Daily I had seen him and conversed with_him .Nothing could_be discerned through_the impenetrable veil of_his duplicity .When busied in conjectures as_to_the author of_the evil that was threatened, my mind did_not light for amoment upon his image .Yet has he not avowed himself my enemy ? Why should he be here if he had_not meditated evil ?

He confesses that_this has_been his second attempt . what_was the scene of_his former conspiracy ? was_it not he whose whispers betrayed him ? Am I deceived ? or was there not afaint resemblance between_the voice of_this man and_that which talked of grasping my throat and extinguishing my life in amoment ? Then he had acolleague in_his crime; now he_is alone .Then death was_the scope of_his thoughts; now an injury unspeakably more dreadful .How thankful should I be to_the power that has interposed to save me !

That power is invisible . it_is subject to_the cognizance of one of_my senses . what_are the means that_will inform me of what nature it_is ? He has set himself to counter-work the machinations of_this man, who had menaced destruction to all that_is dear to_me, and whose coming had surmounted every human impediment . there_was none to rescue me from_his grasp .My rashness even hastened the completion of_his scheme, and precluded him from_the benefits of deliberation .I had robbed him of_the power to repent and forbear .Had I been apprised of_the danger, i_should_have regarded my conduct as_the means of rendering my escape from_it impossible .Such, likewise, seem to_have_been the fears of_my invisible protector .Else why that startling entreaty to refrain from opening the closet ? By what inexplicable infatuation was I compelled to_proceed ?

"Surely," said I, " there_is omnipotence in_the cause that changed the views of aman like Carwin .The divinity that shielded me from_his attempts will take suitable care of_my future safety .Thus to yield to my fears is to deserve that_they should_be real ."

Scarcely had I uttered these words, when my attention was startled by_the sound of footsteps .They denoted some one stepping into_the piazza in front of_my house .My new-born confidence was extinguished in amoment .Carwin, i_thought, had repented his departure, and was hastily returning .The possibility that his return was prompted by intentions consistent with my safety found no place in my mind .Images of violation and murder assailed me anew, and_the terrors which succeeded almost incapacitated me from taking any measures for_my defense . it_was an impulse of_which i_was scarcely conscious that made me fasten the lock and draw the bolts of_my chamber door .Having done this, I threw myself on aseat; for I trembled to adegree which disabled me from standing, and my soul was so perfectly absorbed in_the act of listening, that almost the vital motions were stopped .

The door below creaked on its hinges . it_was not again thrust to, but appeared to remain open .Footsteps entered, traversed the entry, and began to mount the stairs .How I detested the folly of not pursuing the man when he withdrew, and bolting after him the outer door ! Might he not conceive this omission to_be aproof that my angel had deserted me, and be thereby fortified in guilt ?

Every step on_the stairs which brought him nearer to my chamber added vigor to my desperation .The evil with_which i_was menaced was to_be at any rate eluded .How little did I preconceive the conduct which, in an exigence like this, i_should_be prone to adopt ! you_will suppose that deliberation and despair would_have suggested the same course of action, and_that i_should_have unhesitatingly resorted to_the best means of personal defense within my power .apenknife lay open upon my table .I remembered that_it_was there, and seized it .For what purpose you_will scarcely inquire . it_will_be immediately supposed that I meant it for_my last refuge, and_that, if all other means should fail, i_should plunge it into_the heart of_my ravisher .

I_have lost all faith in_the steadfastness of human resolves . it_was thus that in periods of calm I had determined to act .No cowardice had_been held by me in greater abhorrence than that which prompted an injured female to destroy, not her injurer ere the injury was perpetrated, but herself when it_was without remedy .Yet now this penknife appeared to_me of no other use than to baffle my assailant and prevent the crime by destroying myself .To deliberate at_such_a_time was impossible; but, among_the tumultuous suggestions of_the moment, I_do_not recollect that_it once occurred to_me to use it as an instrument of direct defense .

The steps had now reached the second floor .Every footfall accelerated the completion without augmenting the certainty of evil .The consciousness that_the door was fast, now that nothing but that was interposed between me and danger, was asource of some consolation .I cast my eye toward the window .This, likewise, was anew suggestion . if_the door should give way, it_was my sudden resolution to throw myself from_the window .Its height from_the ground, which_was covered beneath by abrick pavement, would insure my destruction; but i_thought not of_that .

When opposite to my door the footsteps ceased .Was he listening whether my fears were allayed and my caution were asleep ? Did he hope to_take me by surprise ? Yet, if_so, why did he allow so_many noisy signals to betray his approach ? Presently the steps were again heard to approach the door .ahand was laid upon_the lock, and_the latch pulled back .Did he imagine it possible that i_should fail to secure the door ? aslight effort was_made to push it open, as_if, all bolts being withdrawn, aslight effort only was required .

I no sooner perceived this than I moved swiftly toward the window .Carwin's frame might_be said to_be all muscle .His strength and activity had appeared, in various instances, to_be prodigious .aslight exertion of_his force would demolish the door . would_not that exertion be made ? Too surely it would; but, at_the same moment that_this obstacle should yield and he_should enter the apartment, my determination was formed to leap from_the window .My senses were still bound to_this object .I gazed at_the door in momentary expectation that_the assault would_be made .The pause continued .The person without was irresolute and motionless .

Suddenly it occurred to_me that Carwin might conceive me to_have fled .That I had_not betaken myself to flight was, indeed, the least probable of all conclusions . in_this persuasion he_must_have been confirmed on finding the lower door unfastened and_the chamber door locked . was_it not wise to foster this persuasion ? Should I maintain deep silence, this, in_addition to other circumstances, might encourage the belief, and he_would once more depart .Every new reflection added plausibility to_this reasoning . it_was presently more strongly enforced when I noticed footsteps withdrawing from_the door .The blood once more flowed back to my heart, and adawn of exultation began to rise; but my joy was short-lived .Instead of descending the stairs, he passed to_the door of_the opposite chamber, opened it, and, having entered, shut it after him with aviolence that shook the house .

How was I to interpret this circumstance ? For what end could he have entered this chamber ? Did the violence with_which he closed the door testify the depth of_his vexation ? This room was usually occupied by Pleyel .Was Carwin aware of_his absence on_this night ? Could he be suspected of adesign so sordid as pillage ?


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