Wieland's Maddness by Charles Brockden Brown
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of_my fate was ordained to_be communicated ? Yet what salutary end did it serve ? Did it arm me with caution to elude or fortitude to bear the evils to_which i_was reserved ? My present thoughts were, no_doubt, indebted for their hue to_the similitude existing between_these incidents and those of_my dream .Surely it_was frenzy that dictated my deed .That aruffian was hidden in_the closet was an idea the genuine tendency of which_was to urge me to flight .Such had_been the effect formerly produced .Had my mind been simply occupied with_this thought at present, no_doubt the same impulse would_have_been experienced; but now it_was my brother whom i_was irresistibly persuaded to regard as_the contriver of_that ill of_which I had_been forewarned .This persuasion did_not extenuate my fears or my danger .Why then did I again approach the closet and withdraw the bolt ? My resolution was instantly conceived, and executed without faltering .

The door was formed of light materials .The lock, of simple structure, easily forewent its hold .It opened into_the room, and commonly moved upon its hinges, after being unfastened, without any effort of_mine .This effort, however, was bestowed upon_the present occasion . it_was my purpose to open it with quickness; but the exertion which I_made was ineffectual .It refused to open .

At another time, this circumstance would_not have looked with aface of mystery . i_should_have supposed some casual obstruction and repeated my efforts to surmount it .But now my mind was accessible to no conjecture but one .The door was hindered from opening by human force .Surely, here was anew cause for affright . this_was confirmation proper to decide my conduct .Now was all ground of hesitation taken away .What could_be supposed but that I deserted the chamber and_the house ? that I at_least endeavored no longer to withdraw the door ?

Have I not said that my actions were dictated by frenzy ? My reason had forborne, for atime, to suggest or to sway my resolves .I reiterated my endeavors .I exerted all my force to overcome the obstacle, but in vain .The strength that was exerted to_keep it shut was superior to mine .

acasual observer might, perhaps, applaud the audaciousness of_this conduct .Whence, but from ahabitual defiance of danger, could my perseverance arise ? I_have already assigned, as distinctly as I_am able, the cause of it .The frantic conception that my brother was within, that_the resistance made to my design was exerted by him, had rooted itself in my mind . you_will comprehend the height of_this infatuation, when I tell you that, finding all my exertions vain, I betook myself to exclamations .Surely i_was utterly bereft of understanding .

Now I had arrived at_the crisis of_my fate ."Oh, hinder not the door to open," I exclaimed, in atone that had less of fear than of grief in_it ." I_know you well .Come forth, but harm me not .I beseech you, come forth ."

I had taken my hand from_the lock and removed to asmall distance from_the door .I had scarcely uttered these words, when_the door swung upon its hinges and displayed to my view the interior of_the closet .Whoever was within was shrouded in darkness .afew seconds passed without interruption of_the silence . I_knew not what to expect or to fear .My eyes would_not stray from_the recess .Presently, adeep sigh was heard .The quarter from_which it came heightened the eagerness of_my gaze .Some one approached from_the farther end .I quickly perceived the outlines of ahuman figure .Its steps were irresolute and slow .I recoiled as it advanced .

By coming at_length within_the verge of_the room, his form was clearly distinguishable .I had prefigured to myself avery different personage .The face that presented itself was_the last that i_should desire to meet at an hour and in aplace like this .My wonder was stifled by my fears .Assassins had lurked in_this recess .Some divine voice warned me of danger that at_this moment awaited me .I had spurned the intimation, and challenged my adversary .

I recalled the mysterious countenance and dubious character of Carwin .What motive but atrocious ones could guide his steps hither ? i_was alone .My habit suited the hour, and_the place, and_the warmth of_the season .All succor was remote .He had placed himself between me and_the door .My frame shook with_the vehemence of_my apprehensions .

Yet i_was not wholly lost to myself; I vigilantly marked his demeanor .His looks were grave, but not without perturbation .What species of inquietude it betrayed the light was not strong enough to enable me to discover .He stood still; but his eyes wandered from one object to another .When these powerful organs were fixed upon me, I shrunk into myself . at_length he broke silence .Earnestness, and not embarrassment, was in_his tone .He advanced close to_me while he spoke:--

"What voice was_that which lately addressed you ? "

He paused for an answer; but, observing my trepidation, he resumed, with undiminished solemnity, "Be not terrified .Whoever he_was, he has_done you an important service . I_need not ask_you if_it were the voice of acompanion .That sound was beyond the compass of human organs .The knowledge that enabled him to_tell you who was in_the closet was obtained by incomprehensible means .

" you_knew that Carwin was there .Were you not apprised of_his intents ? The same power could impart the one as_well as_the other .Yet, knowing these, you persisted .Audacious girl ! But perhaps you confided in_his guardianship .Your confidence was just .With succor like this at hand you_may safely defy me .

" he_is my eternal foe; the baffler of_my best-concerted schemes .Twice have_you been saved by his accursed interposition .But for him i_should long ere now have borne away the spoils of your honor ."

He looked at me with greater steadfastness than before .I became every moment more anxious for_my safety . it_was with difficulty I stammered out an entreaty that he_would instantly depart, or suffer me to_do_so .He paid no regard to my request, but proceeded in amore impassioned manner:--

" what_is it you fear ? Have I not told you you_are safe ? has_not one in whom you more reasonably place trust assured you of it ? Even if I execute my purpose, what injury is done ? Your prejudices will call it by_that name, but it merits it not .

" i_was impelled by asentiment that does you honor; asentiment that_would sanctify my deed; but, whatever it be, you_are safe .Be this chimera still worshiped; i_will do nothing to pollute it ." There he stopped .

The accents and gestures of_this man left me drained of all courage .Surely, on no other occasion should I_have_been thus pusillanimous .My state I regarded as ahopeless one . i_was wholly at_the mercy of_this being .Whichever way I turned my eyes, I_saw no avenue by_which I_might escape .The resources of_my personal strength, my ingenuity, and my eloquence, I estimated at nothing .The dignity of virtue and_the force of truth I had_been accustomed to celebrate, and had frequently vaunted of_the conquests which i_should make with their assistance .

I used to suppose that certain evils could never befall abeing in possession of asound mind; that true virtue supplies us with energy which vice can never resist; that_it_was always in_our power to obstruct, by his own death, the designs of an enemy who aimed at less_than our life .How was_it that asentiment like despair had now invaded me, and_that I trusted to_the protection of chance, or to_the pity of_my persecutor ?

His words imparted some notion of_the injury which he had meditated .He talked of obstacles that had risen in_his way .He had relinquished his design .These sources supplied me with slender consolation . there_was no security but in_his absence .When I looked at myself, when I reflected on_the hour and_the place, i_was overpowered by horror and dejection .

he_was silent, museful, and inattentive to my situation, yet made no motion to depart . i_was silent in my turn .What could I_say ? i_was confident that reason in_this contest would_be impotent . I_must owe my safety to_his own suggestions .Whatever purpose brought him hither, he had changed it .Why then did he remain ? His resolutions might fluctuate, and_the pause of a few_minutes restore to him his first resolutions .

Yet was not this the man whom we had treated with unwearied kindness ? whose society was endeared to_us by his intellectual elevation and accomplishments ? who had athousand times expatiated on_the usefulness and beauty of virtue ? Why should such aone be dreaded ? If I_could_have forgotten the circumstances in_which our interview had taken place, I_might_have treated his words as jests .Presently, he resumed:--

"Fear me not: the space that severs us is small, and all visible succor is distant .You believe yourself completely in my power; that you stand upon_the brink of ruin .Such are your groundless fears . I_cannot lift afinger to hurt you .Easier would it be to stop the moon in her course than to injure you .The power that protects you_would crumble my sinews and reduce me to aheap of ashes in amoment, if I were to harbor athought hostile to your safety .

"Thus are appearances at_length solved .Little did I expect that_they originated hence .What aportion is assigned to_you ! Scanned by_the eyes of_this intelligence, your path will_be without pits to swallow or snares to entangle you .Environed


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