By the Waters of Paradise by F. Marion Crawford
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and_the look in_them woke all my old memories .She went over the house with me .

"And how is_the Woman of_the Water ? " I asked, trying to laugh alittle ."Does she still play in_the moonlight ? "

" she_is hungry," answered the Welshwoman, in alow voice .

"Hungry ? Then we_will feed her ." I laughed .But old Judith turned very pale, and looked at me strangely .

"Feed her ? Aye-- you_will feed her well," she muttered, glancing behind her at_the ancient housekeeper, who tottered after us with feeble steps through_the halls and passages .

I_did_not think much of her words .She had always talked oddly, as Welshwomen will, and though i_was very melancholy I_am_sure i_was not superstitious, and i_was certainly not timid .Only, as in afar-off dream, I seemed to_see her standing with_the light in her hand and muttering, "The heavy one--all of lead," and then leading alittle boy through_the long corridors to_see his father lying dead in agreat easy chair before asmoldering fire .So we went over the house, and I chose the rooms where i_would live; and_the servants I had brought with me ordered and arranged everything, and I had no more trouble . I_did_not care what they_did provided i_was left in peace and was not expected to_give directions; for i_was more listless than ever, owing to_the effects of_my illness at college .

I dined in solitary state, and_the melancholy grandeur of_the vast old dining-room pleased me .Then I went to_the room I had selected for_my study, and sat down in adeep chair, under abright light, to_think, or to let my thoughts meander through labyrinths of_their own choosing, utterly indifferent to_the course they_might take .

The tall windows of_the room opened to_the level of_the ground upon_the terrace at_the head of_the garden . it_was in_the end of July, and everything was open, for_the weather was warm .As I sat alone I heard the unceasing splash of_the great fountains, and I fell to thinking of_the Woman of_the Water .I rose and went out into_the still night, and sat down upon aseat on_the terrace, between two gigantic Italian flower pots .The air was deliciously soft and sweet with_the smell of_the flowers, and_the garden was more congenial to_me than_the house .Sad people always like running water and_the sound of it at night, though I_cannot tell why .I sat and listened in_the gloom, for it_was dark below, and_the pale moon had_not yet climbed over the hills in front of me, though all the air above was light with her rising beams .Slowly the white halo in_the eastern sky ascended in an arch above the wooded crests, making the outlines of_the mountains more intensely black by contrast, as_though the head of some great white saint were rising from behind ascreen in avast cathedral, throwing misty glories from below .I longed to_see the moon herself, and I tried to reckon the seconds before she_must appear .Then she sprang up quickly, and in amoment more hung round and perfect in_the sky .I gazed at her, and then at_the floating spray of_the tall fountains, and down at_the pools, where the water lilies were rocking softly in their sleep on_the velvet surface of_the moonlit water .Just then agreat swan floated out silently into_the midst of_the basin, and wreathed his long neck, catching the water in_his broad bill, and scattering showers of diamonds around him .

Suddenly, as I gazed, something came between me and_the light .I looked up instantly .Between me and_the round disk of_the moon rose aluminous face of awoman, with great strange eyes, and awoman's mouth, full and soft, but not smiling, hooded in black, staring at me as I sat still upon my bench .She was close to_me-- so close that I_could_have touched her with my hand .But i_was transfixed and helpless .She stood still for amoment, but her expression did_not change .Then she passed swiftly away, and my hair stood up on my head, while the cold breeze from her white dress was wafted to my temples as she moved .The moonlight, shining through_the tossing spray of_the fountain, made traceries of shadow on_the gleaming folds of her garments .In an instant she was gone and i_was alone .

i_was strangely shaken by_the vision, and some_time passed before I_could rise to my feet, for i_was still weak from my illness, and_the sight I had seen would_have startled anyone . I_did_not reason with myself, for i_was certain that I had looked on_the unearthly, and no argument could_have destroyed that belief .At last I got up and stood unsteadily, gazing in_the direction in_which i_thought the face had gone; but there_was nothing to_be seen--nothing but the broad paths, the tall, dark evergreen hedges, the tossing water of_the fountains and_the smooth pool below .I fell back upon_the seat and recalled the face I had seen .Strange to_say, now that_the first impression had passed, there_was nothing startling in_the recollection; on_the contrary, I_felt that i_was fascinated by_the face, and would give anything to_see it again . I_could retrace the beautiful straight features, the long dark eyes, and_the wonderful mouth most exactly in my mind, and when I had reconstructed every detail from memory I_knew that_the whole was beautiful, and_that i_should love awoman with_such aface .

"I wonder whether she_is the Woman of_the Water ! " I_said to myself .Then rising once more, I wandered down the garden, descending one short flight of steps after another from terrace to terrace by_the edge of_the marble basins, through_the shadow and through_the moonlight; and I crossed the water by_the rustic bridge above the artificial grotto, and climbed slowly up again to_the highest terrace by_the other side .The air seemed sweeter, and i_was very calm, so_that i_think I smiled to myself as I walked, as_though anew happiness had come to_me .The woman's face seemed always before me, and_the thought of it gave_me an unwonted thrill of pleasure, unlike anything I had ever felt before .

I turned as I reached the house, and looked back upon_the scene .It had certainly changed in_the short hour since I had come out, and my mood had changed with it .Just like my luck, i_thought, to_fall in love with aghost ! But in old times i_would_have sighed, and gone to bed more sad than ever, at such amelancholy conclusion .To-night I_felt happy, almost for_the first time in my life .The gloomy old study seemed cheerful when I went in .The old pictures on_the walls smiled at me, and I sat down in my deep chair with anew and delightful sensation that i_was not alone .The idea of having seen aghost, and of feeling much the better for_it, was so absurd that I laughed softly, as i_took up one_of_the books I had brought with me and began to read .

That impression did_not wear off .I slept peacefully, and in_the morning I threw open my windows to_the summer air and looked down at_the garden, at_the stretches of green and at_the colored flower- beds, at_the circling swallows and at_the bright water .

"A man might make aparadise of_this place," I exclaimed ."A man and awoman together ! "

from_that day the old Castle no longer seemed gloomy, and i_think I ceased to_be sad; for some_time, too, I began to_take an interest in_the place, and to_try and make it more alive .I avoided my old Welsh nurse, lest she should damp my humor with some dismal prophecy, and recall my old self by bringing back memories of_my dismal childhood .But what i_thought of most was_the ghostly figure I had seen in_the garden that first night after my arrival .I went out every evening and wandered through_the walks and paths; but, try as I_might, I_did_not see my vision again .At last, after many days, the memory grew more faint, and my old moody nature gradually overcame the temporary sense of lightness I had experienced .The summer turned to autumn, and I grew restless .It began to rain .The dampness pervaded the gardens, and_the outer halls smelled musty, like tombs; the gray sky oppressed me intolerably .I left the place as it_was and went abroad, determined to_try anything which might possibly make asecond break in_the monotonous melancholy from_which I suffered .

II

Most people would_be struck by_the utter insignificance of_the small events which, after_the death of_my parents, influenced my life and made me unhappy .The grewsome forebodings of aWelsh nurse, which chanced to_be realized by an odd coincidence of events, should_not seem enough to_change the nature of achild and to direct the bent of_his character in after years .The little disappointments of schoolboy life, and_the somewhat less childish ones of an uneventful and undistinguished academic career, should_not have sufficed to_turn me out at one-and-twenty years_of_age amelancholic, listless idler .Some weakness of_my own character may_have contributed to_the result, but in agreater degree it_was due to my having areputation for bad luck .However, i_will_not try to analyze the causes of_my state, for i_should satisfy nobody, least of all myself .Still less will I attempt to explain why I_felt


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