Titbottom's Spectacles by George William Curtis
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of_the landscapes of_the Italian painter Claude which seemed to_me faint reminiscences of_that calm and happy vision .But all this peace and prosperity seemed to flow from_the spreading palm as from afountain .

" I_do_not know how long I looked, but I had, apparently, no power, as I had no will, to remove the spectacles .What awonderful island must Nevis be, thought I, if people carry such pictures in their pockets, only by buying apair of spectacles ! What wonder that my dear grandmother Titbottom has lived such aplacid life, and has blessed us all with her sunny temper, when she has lived surrounded by such images of peace .

"My grandfather died .But still, in_the warm morning sunshine upon_the piazza, I_felt his placid presence, and as I crawled into his great chair, and drifted on in reverie through_the still, tropical day, it_was as_if his soft, dreamy eye had passed into my soul .My grandmother cherished his memory with tender regret .aviolent passion of grief for_his loss was no more possible than for_the pensive decay of_the year . we_have no portrait of him, but I_see always, when I remember him, that peaceful and luxuriant palm .And i_think that to_have known one good old man--one man who, through_the chances and rubs of along life, has carried his heart in_his hand, like apalm branch, waving all discords into peace, helps our faith in God, in ourselves, and in each_other, more than many sermons .I hardly know whether to_be grateful to my grandfather for_the spectacles; and yet when I remember that_it_is to_them I owe the pleasant image of him which I cherish, I seem to myself sadly ungrateful .

"Madam," said Titbottom to Prue, solemnly, "my memory is along and gloomy gallery, and only remotely, at its further end, do I_see the glimmer of soft sunshine, and only there_are the pleasant pictures hung .They seem to_me very happy along whose gallery the sunlight streams to_their very feet, striking all the pictured walls into unfading splendor ."

Prue had laid her work in her lap, and as Titbottom paused amoment, and I turned towards her, I_found her mild eyes fastened upon my face, and glistening with happy tears .

"Misfortunes of many kinds came heavily upon_the family after_the head was gone .The great house was relinquished .My parents were both dead, and my grandmother had entire charge of me .But from_the moment that I received the gift of_the spectacles, I_could_not resist their fascination, and I withdrew into myself, and became asolitary boy .There were_not many companions for_me of_my own age, and_they gradually left me, or, at_least, had_not ahearty sympathy with me; for if_they teased me I pulled out my spectacles and surveyed them so seriously that_they acquired akind of awe of me, and evidently regarded my grandfather's gift as aconcealed magical weapon which might_be dangerously drawn upon them at any moment .Whenever, in_our games, there were quarrels and high words, and I began to_feel about_my dress and to wear agrave look, they all took the alarm, and shouted, 'Look out for Titbottom's spectacles,' and scattered like aflock of scared sheep .

"Nor could I wonder at it .For, at first, before_they took the alarm, I_saw strange sights when I looked at them through_the glasses .If two were quarrelling about amarble or aball, I had only to_go behind atree where i_was concealed and look at them leisurely .Then the scene changed, and no longer agreen meadow with boys playing, but aspot which I_did_not recognize, and forms that made me shudder or smile . it_was not abig boy bullying alittle one, but ayoung wolf with glistening teeth and alamb cowering before him; or, it_was adog faithful and famishing--or astar going slowly into eclipse--or arainbow fading--or aflower blooming--or asun rising--or awaning moon .The revelations of_the spectacles determined my feeling for_the boys, and for all whom I_saw through them .No shyness, nor awkwardness, nor silence, could separate me from those who looked lovely as lilies to my illuminated eyes .If I_felt myself warmly drawn to any_one I struggled with_the fierce desire of seeing him through_the spectacles .I longed to enjoy the luxury of ignorant feeling, to love without knowing, to float like aleaf upon_the eddies of life, drifted now to asunny point, now to asolemn shade--now over glittering ripples, now over gleaming calms,--and not to determined ports, atrim vessel with an inexorable rudder .

"But, sometimes, mastered after long struggles, I seized my spectacles and sauntered into_the little town .Putting them to my eyes I peered into_the houses and at_the people who passed me .Here sat afamily at breakfast, and I stood at_the window looking in .O motley meal ! fantastic vision ! The good mother saw her lord sitting opposite, agrave, respectable being, eating muffins .But I_saw only abank-bill, more or less crumpled and tattered, marked with alarger or lesser figure .If asharp wind blew suddenly, I_saw it tremble and flutter; it_was thin, flat, impalpable .I removed my glasses, and looked with my eyes at_the wife . I_could_have smiled to_see the humid tenderness with_which she regarded her strange vis-a-vis .Is life only agame of blind-man's-buff ? of droll cross-purposes ?

"Or I put them on again, and looked at_the wife . how_many stout trees I_saw,-- how_many tender flowers,-- how_many placid pools; yes, and how_many little streams winding out of sight, shrinking before_the large, hard, round eyes opposite, and slipping off into solitude and shade, with alow, inner song for their own solace .And in many houses i_thought to_see angels, nymphs, or at_least, women, and could only find broomsticks, mops, or kettles, hurrying about, rattling, tinkling, in astate of shrill activity . I_made calls upon elegant ladies, and after I had enjoyed the gloss of silk and_the delicacy of lace, and_the flash of jewels, I slipped on my spectacles, and saw apeacock's feather, flounced and furbelowed and fluttering; or an iron rod, thin, sharp, and hard; nor could I possibly mistake the movement of_the drapery for any flexibility of_the thing draped,--or, mysteriously chilled, I_saw astatue of perfect form, or flowing movement, it might_be alabaster, or bronze, or marble,--but sadly often it_was ice; and I_knew that after it had shone alittle, and frozen afew eyes with its despairing perfection, it could_not_be put away in_the niches of palaces for ornament and proud family tradition, like the alabaster, or bronze, or marble statues, but would melt, and shrink, and fall coldly away in colorless and useless water, be absorbed in_the earth and utterly forgotten .

"But the true sadness was rather in seeing those who, not having the spectacles, thought that_the iron rod was flexible, and_the ice statue warm . I_saw many agallant heart, which seemed to_me brave and loyal as_the crusaders sent by genuine and noble faith to Syria and_the sepulchre, pursuing, through days and nights, and along life of devotion, the hope of lighting at_least asmile in_the cold eyes, if_not afire in_the icy heart .I watched the earnest, enthusiastic sacrifice . I_saw the pure resolve, the generous faith, the fine scorn of doubt, the impatience of suspicion .I watched the grace, the ardor, the glory of devotion .Through those strange spectacles how often I_saw the noblest heart renouncing all other hope, all other ambition, all other life, than_the possible love of some one of_those statues .Ah ! me, it_was terrible, but they had_not the love to_give .The Parian face was so polished and smooth, because there_was no sorrow upon_the heart,--and, drearily often, no heart to_be touched . I_could_not wonder that_the noble heart of devotion was broken, for_it had dashed itself against astone .I wept, until my spectacles were dimmed for_that hopeless sorrow; but there_was apang beyond tears for_those icy statues .

"Still aboy, i_was thus too_much aman in knowledge,-- I_did_not comprehend the sights i_was compelled to_see .I used to tear my glasses away from my eyes, and, frightened at myself, run to escape my own consciousness .Reaching the small house where we then lived, I plunged into my grandmother's room and, throwing myself upon_the floor, buried my face in her lap; and sobbed myself to sleep with premature grief .But when I awakened, and felt her cool hand upon my hot forehead, and heard the low, sweet song, or the gentle story, or the tenderly told parable from_the Bible, with_which she tried to soothe me, I_could_not resist the mystic fascination that lured me, as I lay in her lap, to steal aglance at her through_the spectacles .

"Pictures of_the Madonna have_not her rare and pensive beauty . upon_the tranquil little islands her life had_been eventless, and all the fine possibilities of her nature were like flowers that never bloomed .Placid were all her years; yet I_have read of no heroine, of no woman great in sudden crises, that_it did_not seem to_me she might_have_been .The wife and widow of aman who loved his own home better than_the homes of others, I_have yet heard of no queen, no belle, no imperial beauty, whom in grace, and brilliancy, and persuasive courtesy, she might_not have surpassed .

"Madam," said Titbottom to my wife, whose heart hung upon his story; "your husband's young friend, Aurelia, wears sometimes acamelia in her hair, and no diamond in_the ball-room seems so costly as_that perfect flower, which women envy, and for whose least and withered petal men sigh; yet, in_the tropical solitudes of Brazil, how_many acamelia bud drops from abush that no eye has ever seen, which, had it flowered and been noticed, would_have gilded all hearts with its memory .

"When I stole these furtive glances at my grandmother, half fearing that_they were wrong, I_saw only acalm lake, whose shores were low, and over which the sky hung unbroken, so that_the least star was clearly reflected .It had an atmosphere of solemn twilight tranquillity, and so completely did its unruffled surface blend with_the cloudless, star-studded sky, that, when I looked through my spectacles at my grandmother, the vision seemed to_me all heaven and stars .Yet, as I gazed and gazed, I_felt what stately cities might well have_been built upon those shores, and_have flashed prosperity over the calm, like coruscations of pearls .

"I dreamed of gorgeous fleets, silken sailed and blown by perfumed winds, drifting over those depthless waters and through those spacious skies .I gazed upon_the twilight, the inscrutable silence, like aGod-fearing discoverer upon anew, and vast, and dim sea, bursting upon him through forest glooms, and in_the fervor of whose impassioned gaze, amillennial and poetic world arises, and man need no longer die to_be happy .

"My companions naturally deserted me, for I had grown wearily grave and abstracted: and, unable to resist the allurement of_my spectacles, i_was constantly lost in aworld, of_which those companions were part, yet of_which they knew nothing .I grew cold and hard, almost morose; people seemed to_me blind and unreasonable . they_did the wrong thing .They called green, yellow; and black, white .Young men said of agirl, 'What alovely, simple creature ! ' I looked, and


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