A Slip under the Microscope by H.G. Wells
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when_the second pass list appeared, the previous positions of Wedderburn and Hill were reversed, and_the spectacled girl in green, who knew the demonstrator in private life (where he_was practically human), said that in_the result of_the two examinations taken together Hill had the advantage of amark--167 to 166 out of apossible 200 .Everyone admired Hill in away, though the suspicion of "mugging" clung to him .But Hill was to_find congratulations and Miss Haysman's enhanced opinion of him, and even the decided decline in_the crest of Wedderburn, tainted by an unhappy memory . he_felt aremarkable access of energy at first, and_the note of ademocracy marching to triumph returned to_his debating-society speeches; he worked at his comparative anatomy with tremendous zeal and effect, and he went on with_his aesthetic education .But through it all, avivid little picture was continually coming before his mind's eye--of asneakish person manipulating aslide .

No human being had witnessed the act, and he_was cocksure that no higher power existed to_see, it; but for all that_it worried him .Memories are_not dead things but alive; they dwindle in disuse, but they harden and develop in all sorts of queer ways if_they_are being continually fretted .Curiously enough, though at_the_time he perceived clearly that_the shifting was accidental, as_the days wore on, his memory became confused about_it, until at last he_was not sure--although he assured himself that he_was sure--whether the movement had_been absolutely involuntary .Then it_is possible that Hill's dietary was conducive to morbid conscientiousness; abreakfast frequently eaten in ahurry, amidday bun, and, at such hours after five as chanced to_be convenient, such meat as his means determined, usually in achop-house in aback street off the Brompton Road .Occasionally he treated himself to threepenny or ninepenny classics, and_they usually represented asuppression of potatoes or chops . it_is indisputable that outbreaks of self-abasement and emotional revival have adistinct relation to periods of scarcity .But apart from_this influence on_the feelings, there_was in Hill adistinct aversion to falsity that_the blasphemous Landport cobbler had inculcated by strap and tongue from_his earliest years .Of one fact about professed atheists I_am convinced; they_may_be--they usually are--fools, void of subtlety, revilers of holy institutions, brutal speakers, and mischievous knaves, but they lie with difficulty . if_it were_not so, if_they had the faintest grasp of_the idea of compromise, they_would simply be liberal churchmen .And, moreover, this memory poisoned his regard for Miss Haysman .For she now so evidently preferred him to Wedderburn that he_felt sure he cared for her, and began reciprocating her attentions by timid marks of personal regard; at one_time he even bought abunch of violets, carried it about in_his pocket, and produced it, with astumbling explanation, withered and dead, in_the gallery of old iron .It poisoned, too, the denunciation of capitalist dishonesty that had_been one of_his life's pleasures .And, lastly, it poisoned his triumph in Wedderburn .Previously he had_been Wedderburn's superior in_his own eyes, and had raged simply at awant of recognition .Now he began to fret at_the darker suspicion of positive inferiority .He fancied he_found justifications for_his position in Browning, but they vanished on analysis .At last--moved, curiously enough, by exactly the same motive forces that had resulted in_his dishonesty--he went to Professor Bindon, and made aclean breast of_the whole affair .As Hill was apaid student, Professor Bindon did_not ask him to sit down, and he stood before_the professor's desk as he_made his confession .

"It's acurious story," said Professor Bindon, slowly realising how the thing reflected on himself, and then letting his anger rise,--"a most remarkable story . I_can't understand your doing it, and I_can't understand this avowal .You're atype of student--Cambridge men would never dream--I suppose I ought_to_have thought--why did you cheat ? "

"I didn't cheat," said Hill .

"But you_have just been telling me you_did ."

" i_thought I explained--"

"Either you cheated or you_did_not cheat ."

" I_said my motion was involuntary ."

" I_am not ametaphysician, I_am aservant of science--of fact .You were told not to move the slip . you_did move the slip .If that_is_not cheating--"

"If i_was acheat," said Hill, with_the note of hysterics in_his voice, "should I come here and tell you ? "

"Your repentance, of_course, does you credit," said Professor Bindon, "but it does_not alter the original facts ."

"No, sir," said Hill, giving in in utter self-abasement .

"Even now you cause an enormous amount of trouble .The examination list will_have to_be revised ."

"I suppose so, sir ."

"Suppose so ? of_course it must_be revised .And I don't see how I_can conscientiously pass you ."

"Not pass me ? " said Hill ."Fail me ? "

"It's the rule in all examinations .Or where should we be ? What else did you expect ? You don't want to shirk the consequences of your own acts ? "

" i_thought, perhaps----" said Hill .And then, "Fail me ? i_thought, as i_told you, you_would simply deduct the marks given for_that slip ."

"Impossible ! " said Bindon ."Besides, it would still leave you above Wedderburn .Deduct only the marks ! Preposterous ! The Departmental Regulations distinctly say----"

"But it's my own admission, sir ."

"The Regulations say nothing whatever of_the manner in_which_the matter comes to light .They simply provide----"

" it_will ruin me .If I fail this examination, they won't renew my scholarship ."

" you_should_have thought of_that before ."

"But, sir, consider all my circumstances----"

" I_cannot consider anything .Professors in_this College are machines .The Regulations will not even let_us recommend our students for appointments . I_am amachine, and you_have worked me . I_have to_do----"

"It's very hard, sir ."

"Possibly it_is ."

"If I_am to_be failed this examination, I_might as_well go home at once ."

" that_is as you_think proper ." Bindon's voice softened alittle; he perceived he had_been unjust, and, provided he_did_not contradict himself, he_was disposed to amelioration ."As aprivate person," he_said, " i_think this confession of yours goes far to mitigate your offence .But you_have set the machinery in motion, and now it must take its course .I-- I_am really sorry you_gave way ."

awave of emotion prevented Hill from answering .Suddenly, very vividly, he_saw the heavily-lined face of_the old Landport cobbler, his father ."Good God ! What afool I_have_been ! " he_said hotly and abruptly .

" I_hope," said Bindon, " that_it_will_be alesson to_you ."

But, curiously enough, they were_not thinking of quite the same indiscretion .

there_was apause .

" i_would like aday to_think, sir, and then i_will let you_know--about going home, I mean," said Hill, moving towards the door .

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The next_day Hill's place was vacant .The spectacled girl in green was, as usual, first with_the news .Wedderburn and Miss Haysman were talking of aperformance of_the Meistersingers when she came up to_them .

" have_you heard ? " she said .

"Heard what ? "

" there_was cheating in_the examination ."

"Cheating ! " said Wedderburn, with_his face suddenly hot ."How ? "

"That slide--"

"Moved ? Never ! "

" it_was .That slide that we weren't to move--"

"Nonsense ! " said Wedderburn ."Why ! How could they find out ? Who do they say-- ? "

" it_was Mr Hill ."

_Hill ! "

" Mr Hill ! "

"Not--surely not the immaculate Hill ? " said Wedderburn, recovering .

"I don't believe it," said Miss Haysman ."How do_you_know ? "

"I didn't_," said the girl in spectacles ."But I_know it now for afact .Mr Hill went and confessed to Professor Bindon himself ."

"By Jove ! " said Wedderburn ."Hill of all people .But I_am always inclined to distrust these philanthropists-on-principle--"

" are_you quite_sure ? " said Miss Haysman, with acatch in her breath .

"Quite .It's dreadful, isn't it ? But, you_know, what can_you expect ? His father is acobbler ."

Then Miss Haysman astonished the girl in spectacles .

"I don't care . i_will_not believe it," she said, flushing darkly under her warm-tinted skin ." i_will_not believe it until he has told me so himself-- face_to_face . i_would scarcely believe it then," and abruptly she turned her back on_the girl in spectacles, and walked to her own place .

"It's true, all the same," said the girl in spectacles, peering and smiling at Wedderburn .

But Wedderburn did_not answer her .She was indeed one of_those people who seemed destined to_make unanswered remarks .


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