Miss Winchelsea's Heart by H.G. Wells
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at_the window of her little room . it_was moonlight, and down the street aman sang "Santa Lucia" with almost heart-dissolving tenderness .. .She sat very still .

She breathed aword very softly to herself .The word was "_Snooks ." Then she got up with aprofound sigh, and went to bed .The next morning he_said to her meaningly, " I_shall hear of you through your friend ."

Mr Snooks saw them off from Rome with_that pathetic interrogative perplexity still on_his face, and if_it had_not_been for Helen he_would_have retained Miss Winchelsea's hold-all in_his hand as asort of encyclopaedic keepsake .On their way back to England Miss Winchelsea on six separate occasions made Fanny promise to write to her the longest of long letters .Fanny, it seemed, would_be quite near Mr Snooks .Her new school--she was always going to new schools-- would_be only five miles from Steely Bank, and it_was in_the Steely Bank Polytechnic, and one_or_two first-class schools, that Mr Snooks did his teaching .He might even see her at times . they_could_not talk much of him--she and Fanny always spoke of "him," never of Mr Snooks--because Helen was apt to_say unsympathetic things about him .Her nature had coarsened very_much, Miss Winchelsea perceived, since_the old Training College days; she had become hard and cynical .She thought he had aweak face, mistaking refinement for weakness as people of her stamp are apt to_do, and when she heard his name was Snooks, she said she had expected something of_the sort .Miss Winchelsea was careful to spare her own feelings after_that, but Fanny was less circumspect .

The girls parted in London, and Miss Winchelsea returned, with anew interest in life, to_the Girls' High School in_which she had_been an increasingly valuable assistant for_the_last three years .Her new interest in life was Fanny as acorrespondent, and to_give her alead she wrote her alengthy descriptive letter within afortnight of her return .Fanny answered, very disappointingly .Fanny indeed had no literary gift, but it_was new to Miss Winchelsea to_find herself deploring the want of gifts in afriend .That letter was even criticised aloud in_the safe solitude of Miss Winchelsea's study, and her criticism, spoken with great bitterness, was "Twaddle ! " it_was full of just the things Miss Winchelsea's letter had_been full of, particulars of_the school .And of Mr Snooks, only this much: " I_have_had aletter from Mr Snooks, and he has_been over to_see me on two Saturday afternoons running .He talked about Rome and you; we both talked about you .Your ears must_have burnt, my dear .. ."

Miss Winchelsea repressed adesire to demand more explicit information, and wrote the sweetest, long letter again ."Tell me all about yourself, dear .That journey has quite refreshed our ancient friendship, and I do_so want to_keep in touch with_you ." About Mr Snooks she simply wrote on_the fifth page that she was glad Fanny had seen him, and_that if he _should ask after her, she was to_be remembered to him very kindly (underlined) .And Fanny replied most obtusely in_the key of_that "ancient friendship," reminding Miss Winchelsea of adozen foolish things of_those old schoolgirl days at_the Training College, and saying not aword about Mr Snooks !

For nearly aweek Miss Winchelsea was so angry at_the failure of Fanny as ago-between that she_could_not write to her .And then she wrote less effusively, and in her letter she asked point-blank, " have_you seen Mr Snooks ? " Fanny's letter was unexpectedly satisfactory ." I_have_seen Mr Snooks," she wrote, and having once named him she kept on about him; it_was all Snooks--Snooks this and Snooks that . he_was to_give apublic lecture, said Fanny, among other things .Yet Miss Winchelsea, after_the first glow of gratification, still found this letter alittle unsatisfactory .Fanny did_not report Mr Snooks as saying anything about Miss Winchelsea, nor as looking alittle white and worn, as he ought_to_have been doing .And behold ! before she had replied, came asecond letter from Fanny on_the same theme, quite agushing letter, and covering six sheets with her loose feminine hand .

And about_this second letter was arather odd little thing that Miss Winchelsea only noticed as she re-read it the third time .Fanny's natural femininity had prevailed even against the round and clear traditions of_the Training College; she was one of_those she-creatures born to_make all her m'_s and n'_s and u'_s and r'_s and e'_s alike, and to leave her o'_s and a'_s open and her i'_s undotted .So that_it_was only after an elaborate comparison of word with word that Miss Winchelsea felt assured Mr Snooks was not really " Mr Snooks" at all ! In Fanny's first letter of gush he_was Mr "Snooks," in her second the spelling was changed to Mr "Senoks ." Miss Winchelsea's hand positively trembled as she turned the sheet over--it meant so_much to her . for_it had already begun to seem to her that even the name of Mrs Snooks might_be avoided at too great aprice, and suddenly--this possibility ! She turned over the six sheets, all dappled with_that critical name, and everywhere the first letter had the form of an _e ! For atime she walked the room with ahand pressed upon her heart .

She spent awhole day pondering this change, weighing aletter of inquiry that should_be at once discreet and effectual; weighing, too, what action she should take after_the answer came .She was resolved that if_this altered spelling was anything more than aquaint fancy of Fanny's, she_would write forthwith to Mr Snooks .She had now reached astage when_the minor refinements of behaviour disappear .Her excuse remained uninvented, but she had the subject of her letter clear in her mind, even to_the hint that "circumstances in my life have changed very greatly since we talked together ." But she never gave that hint .There came athird letter from_that fitful correspondent Fanny .The first line proclaimed her "the happiest girl alive ."

Miss Winchelsea crushed the letter in her hand--the rest unread--and sat with her face suddenly very still .She had received it just before morning school, and had opened it when_the junior mathematicians were well under way .Presently she resumed reading with an appearance of great calm .But after_the first sheet she went on reading the third without discovering the error:--"told him frankly I_did_not like his name," the third sheet began ." he_told me he_did_not like it himself-- you_know that sort of sudden, frank way he has"--Miss Winchelsea did know ."So I_said, 'couldn't you change it ? ' He didn't see it at first .Well, you_know, dear, he had told me what it really meant; it means Sevenoaks, only it has got down to Snooks--both Snooks and Noaks, dreadfully vulgar surnames though they be, are really worn forms of Sevenoaks .So I_said--even I_have my bright ideas at times--' if_it got down from Sevenoaks to Snooks, why_not get it back from Snooks to Sevenoaks ? ' and_the long and_the short of it_is, dear, he couldn't refuse me, and he changed his spelling there and then to Senoks for_the bills of_the new lecture .And afterwards, when we_are married, we_shall put in_the apostrophe and make it Se'noks .Wasn't it kind of him to mind that fancy of_mine, when many men would_have taken offence ? But it_is just like him all over; he_is as kind as he_is clever .Because he_knew as_well as I_did that i_would_have had him in_spite of it, had he been ten times Snooks .But he_did it all the same ."

The class was startled by_the sound of paper being viciously torn, and looked up to_see Miss Winchelsea white in_the face and with some very_small pieces of paper clenched in one hand .For afew seconds they stared at her stare, and then her expression changed back to amore familiar one ."Has any_one finished number three ? " she asked in an even tone .She remained calm after_that .But impositions ruled high that day .And she spent two laborious evenings writing letters of various sorts to Fanny, before she found adecent congratulatory vein .Her reason struggled hopelessly against the persuasion that Fanny had behaved in an exceedingly treacherous manner .

One may_be extremely refined and still capable of avery sore heart .Certainly Miss Winchelsea's heart was very sore .She had moods of sexual hostility, in_which she generalised uncharitably about mankind ."He forgot himself with me," she said ."But Fanny is pink and pretty and soft and afool--a very excellent match for aMan ." And by way of awedding present she sent Fanny agracefully bound volume of poetry by George Meredith, and Fanny wrote back agrossly happy letter to_say that_it_was "_all_ beautiful ." Miss Winchelsea hoped that some day Mr Senoks might take up that slim book and think for amoment of_the donor .Fanny wrote several_times before and about her marriage, pursuing that fond legend of_their "ancient friendship," and giving her happiness in_the fullest detail .And Miss Winchelsea wrote to Helen for_the first time after_the Roman journey, saying nothing about_the marriage, but expressing very cordial feelings .

They had_been in Rome at Easter, and Fanny was married in_the August vacation .She wrote agarrulous letter to Miss Winchelsea, describing her home-coming and_the astonishing arrangements of_their "teeny, weeny" little house .Mr Se'noks was now beginning to assume arefinement in Miss Winchelsea's memory out of all proportion to_the facts of_the case, and she tried in vain to imagine his cultured greatness in a"teeny weeny" little house ."Am busy enamelling acosy corner," said Fanny, sprawling to_the end of her third sheet, "so excuse more ." Miss Winchelsea answered in her best style, gently poking fun at Fanny's arrangements, and hoping intensely that Mr Se'noks might see the letter .Only this hope enabled her to write at all, answering not_only that letter but one in November and one at Christmas .

The two latter communications contained urgent invitations for her to_come to Steely Bank on avisit during the Christmas holidays .She tried to_think that he had told her to ask that, but it_was too_much like Fanny's opulent good-nature . she_could_not but believe that he_must_be sick of_his blunder by_this_time; and she had more than a hope_that he_would presently write her aletter beginning "Dear Friend ." Something subtly tragic in_the separation was agreat support to her, asad misunderstanding . to_have_been jilted would_have_been intolerable .But he never wrote that letter beginning "Dear Friend ."

For two years Miss Winchelsea could_not go to_see her friends, in_spite of_the reiterated invitations of Mrs Sevenoaks--it became full Sevenoaks in_the second year .Then one day near the Easter rest she felt lonely and without asoul to understand her in_the_world, and her mind ran once more on what_is called Platonic friendship .Fanny was clearly happy and busy in her new sphere of domesticity, but no_doubt he had his lonely hours .Did he ever think of_those days in Rome, gone now beyond recalling ? No one had understood her as he had done; no one in all the world .It would_be asort of melancholy pleasure to_talk to him again, and what harm could it do ? Why should she deny herself ? That night she wrote asonnet, all but the last two lines of_the octave--which would_not come; and_the next_day she composed agraceful little note to_tell Fanny she was coming down .

And so she saw him again .

Even at_the first encounter it_was evident he had changed; he_seemed stouter and less nervous, and it speedily appeared that his conversation had already lost much of_its old delicacy .There even seemed ajustification for Helen's description of weakness in_his face--in certain lights it_was weak . he_seemed busy and preoccupied about his affairs, and almost under the impression that Miss Winchelsea had come for_the sake of Fanny .He discussed his dinner with Fanny in an intelligent way .They only had one good long talk together, and_that came to nothing . he_did_not refer to Rome, and spent some_time abusing aman who had stolen an idea he had had for atext-book .It did_not seem avery wonderful idea to Miss Winchelsea .She discovered he had forgotten the names of more than half the painters whose work they had rejoiced over in Florence .

it_was asadly disappointing week, and Miss Winchelsea was glad when it came to an end .Under various excuses she avoided visiting them again .After atime the visitor's room was occupied by their two little boys, and Fanny's invitations ceased .The intimacy of her letters had long since faded away .


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