Miss Winchelsea's Heart by H.G. Wells
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to_them instead of "go down,"--she knew that was how you told a'Varsity man .He used the word "'Varsity"--not university--in quite the proper way .

They saw as_much of Mr Ruskin's Florence as_the brief time permitted; he met them in_the Pitti Gallery and went round with_them, chatting brightly, and evidently very grateful for their recognition . he_knew agreat deal about art, and all four enjoyed the morning immensely . it_was fine to_go round recognising old favourites and finding new beauties, especially while so_many people fumbled helplessly with Baedeker .Nor was he abit of aprig, Miss Winchelsea said, and indeed she detested prigs .He had adistinct undertone of humour, and was funny, for example, without being vulgar, at_the expense of_the quaint work of Beato Angelico .He had agrave seriousness beneath it all, and was quick to seize the moral lessons of_the pictures .Fanny went softly among_these masterpieces; she admitted "she knew so little about_them," and she confessed that to her they were "all beautiful ." Fanny's "beautiful" inclined to_be alittle monotonous, Miss Winchelsea thought .She had_been quite glad when_the last sunny Alp had vanished, because of_the staccato of Fanny's admiration .Helen said little, but Miss Winchelsea had found her atrifle wanting on_the aesthetic side in_the old days and was not surprised; sometimes she laughed at_the young man's hesitating, delicate jests and sometimes she didn't, and sometimes she seemed quite lost to_the art about_them in_the contemplation of_the dresses of_the other visitors .

At Rome the young man was with_them intermittently .arather "touristy" friend of_his took him away at times .He complained comically to Miss Winchelsea ." I_have only two short weeks in Rome," he_said, "and my friend Leonard wants to_spend awhole day at Tivoli looking at awaterfall ."

" what_is your friend Leonard ? " asked Miss Winchelsea abruptly .

"He's the most enthusiastic pedestrian I ever met," the young man replied--amusingly, but alittle unsatisfactorily, Miss Winchelsea thought .

They had some glorious times, and Fanny could_not think what they_would_have done without him .Miss Winchelsea's interest and Fanny's enormous capacity for admiration were insatiable .They never flagged--through pictures and sculpture galleries, immense crowded churches, ruins and museums, Judas trees and prickly pears, wine carts and palaces, they admired their way unflinchingly .They never saw astone pine or aeucalyptus but they named and admired it; they never glimpsed Soracte but they exclaimed .Their common ways were made wonderful by imaginative play ."Here Caesar may_have walked," they_would say ."Raphael may_have seen Soracte from_this very point ." They happened on_the tomb of Bibulus ."Old Bibulus," said the young man ."The oldest monument of Republican Rome ! " said Miss Winchelsea .

"I'm dreadfully stupid," said Fanny, "but who was Bibulus ? "

there_was acurious little pause .

"Wasn't he the person who built the wall ? " said Helen .

The young man glanced quickly at her and laughed ."That was Balbus," he_said .Helen reddened, but neither he nor Miss Winchelsea threw any light upon Fanny's ignorance about Bibulus .

Helen was more taciturn than_the other three, but then she was always taciturn, and usually she took care of_the tram tickets and things like that, or kept her eye on them if_the young man took them, and told him where they were when he_wanted them .Glorious times they had, these young people, in_that pale brown cleanly city of memories that was once the world .Their only sorrow was_the shortness of_the time .They said indeed that_the electric trams and_the '70 buildings, and_that criminal advertisement that glares upon_the Forum, outraged their aesthetic feelings unspeakably; but that was only part of_the fun .And indeed Rome is such awonderful place that_it made Miss Winchelsea forget some of her most carefully prepared enthusiasms at times, and Helen, taken unawares, would suddenly admit the beauty of unexpected things .Yet Fanny and Helen would_have liked ashop window or so in_the English quarter if Miss Winchelsea's uncompromising hostility to all other English visitors had_not rendered that district impossible .

The intellectual and aesthetic fellowship of Miss Winchelsea and_the scholarly young man passed insensibly towards adeeper feeling .The exuberant Fanny did her best to_keep pace with their recondite admiration by playing her "beautiful" with vigour, and saying "Oh ! let's go," with enormous appetite whenever anew place of interest was mentioned .But Helen developed acertain want of sympathy towards the end that disappointed Miss Winchelsea alittle .She refused to_see "anything" in_the face of Beatrice Cenci--Shelley's Beatrice Cenci ! -- in_the Barberini Gallery; and one day, when_they were deploring the electric trams, she said rather snappishly that "people must get about somehow, and it's better than torturing horses up these horrid little hills ." She spoke of_the Seven Hills of Rome as "horrid little hills " !

and_the day they went on_the Palatine--though Miss Winchelsea did_not know of_this--she remarked suddenly to Fanny, "Don't hurry like that, my dear; _they don't want us to overtake them .And we don't say the right things for_them when we_do get near ."

"I wasn't trying to overtake them," said Fanny, slackening her excessive pace; "I wasn't indeed ." And for aminute she was short of breath .

But Miss Winchelsea had come upon happiness . it_was only when she came to look back across an intervening tragedy that she quite realised how happy she had_been pacing among_the cypress-shadowed ruins, and exchanging the very highest class of information the human mind can possess, the most refined impressions it_is possible to convey .Insensibly emotion crept into their intercourse, sunning itself openly and pleasantly at last when Helen's modernity was not too near .Insensibly their interest drifted from_the wonderful associations about_them to_their more intimate and personal feelings .In atentative way information was supplied; she spoke allusively of her school, of her examination successes, of her gladness that_the days of "Cram" were over . he_made it quite clear that he also was ateacher .They spoke of_the greatness of_their calling, of_the necessity of sympathy to_face its irksome details, of acertain loneliness they sometimes felt .

That was in_the Colosseum, and it_was as far as_they got that day, because Helen returned with Fanny--she had taken her into_the upper galleries .Yet the private dreams of Miss Winchelsea, already vivid and concrete enough, became now realistic in_the highest degree .She figured that pleasant young man lecturing in_the most edifying way to_his students, herself modestly prominent as his intellectual mate and helper; she figured arefined little home, with two bureaus, with white shelves of high-class books, and autotypes of_the pictures of Rossetti and Burne Jones, with Morris's wall-papers and flowers in pots of beaten copper .Indeed she figured many things . on_the Pincio the two had afew precious moments together, while Helen marched Fanny off to_see the muro Torto_, and he spoke at once plainly . he_said he hoped their friendship was only beginning, that he already found her company very precious to him, that indeed it_was more than that .

He became nervous, thrusting at his glasses with trembling fingers as_though he fancied his emotions made them unstable ." i_should of_course," he_said, "tell you things about myself . I_know it_is rather unusual my speaking to_you like this .Only our meeting has_been so accidental--or providential--and I_am snatching at things . I_came to Rome expecting alonely tour .. .and I_have_been so very happy, so very happy .Quite recently I_have found myself in_a_position-- I_have dared to_think----, And----"

He glanced over his shoulder and stopped . he_said "Demn ! " quite distinctly--and she did_not condemn him for_that manly lapse into profanity .She looked and saw his friend Leonard advancing .He drew nearer; he raised his hat to Miss Winchelsea, and_his smile was almost agrin ."I've been looking for_you everywhere, Snooks," he_said ."You promised to_be on_the Piazza steps half-an-hour ago ."

Snooks ! The name struck Miss Winchelsea like ablow in_the face .She did_not hear his reply .She thought afterwards that Leonard must_have considered her the vaguest-minded person . to_this day she_is_not sure whether she was introduced to Leonard or not, nor what she said to him .asort of mental paralysis was upon her .Of all offensive surnames--Snooks !

Helen and Fanny were returning, there were civilities, and_the young men were receding .By agreat effort she controlled herself to_face the inquiring eyes of her friends .All that afternoon she lived the life of aheroine under the indescribable outrage of_that name, chatting, observing, with "Snooks" gnawing at her heart . from_the moment that_it first rang upon her ears, the dream of her happiness was prostrate in_the dust .All the refinement she had figured was ruined and defaced by_that cognomen's unavoidable vulgarity .

What was_that refined little home to her now, spite of autotypes, Morris papers, and bureaus ? Athwart it in letters of fire ran an incredible inscription: " Mrs Snooks ." that_may seem alittle thing to_the reader, but consider the delicate refinement of Miss Winchelsea's mind .Be as refined as_you_can and then think of writing yourself down:--"Snooks ." She conceived herself being addressed as Mrs Snooks by all the people she liked least, conceived the patronymic touched with avague quality of insult .She figured acard of grey and silver bearing 'Winchelsea' triumphantly effaced by an arrow, Cupid's arrow, in favour of "Snooks ." Degrading confession of feminine weakness ! She imagined the terrible rejoicings of certain girl friends, of certain grocer cousins from whom her growing refinement had long since estranged her .How they_would make it sprawl across the envelope that_would bring their sarcastic congratulations .Would even his pleasant company compensate her for_that ? " it_is impossible," she muttered; "impossible ! Snooks ! "

She was sorry for him, but not so sorry as she was for herself .For him she had atouch of indignation . to_be so nice, so refined, while all the time he_was "Snooks," to hide under apretentious gentility of demeanour the badge sinister of_his surname seemed asort of treachery . to_put it in_the language of sentimental science she felt he had "led her on ."

There were, of_course, moments of terrible vacillation, aperiod even when something almost like passion bid her throw refinement to_the winds .And there_was something in her, an unexpurgated vestige of vulgarity that made astrenuous attempt at proving that Snooks was not so very bad aname after all .Any hovering hesitation flew before Fanny's manner, when Fanny came with an air of catastrophe to_tell that she also knew the horror .Fanny's voice fell to awhisper when she said Snooks .Miss Winchelsea would_not give him any answer when at last, in_the Borghese, she could_have aminute with_him; but she promised him anote .

She handed him that note in_the little book of poetry he had lent her, the little book that had first drawn them together .Her refusal was ambiguous, allusive . she_could no more tell him why she rejected him than she could_have told acripple of_his hump .He too must feel something of_the unspeakable quality of_his name .Indeed he had avoided adozen chances of telling it, she now perceived .So she spoke of "obstacles she_could_not reveal"--"reasons why the thing he spoke of was impossible ." She addressed the note with ashiver, "E .K .Snooks ."

Things were worse than she had dreaded; he asked her to explain .How _could she explain ? Those last two days in Rome were dreadful .She was haunted by his air of astonished perplexity .She knew she had given him intimate hopes, she had_not the courage to examine her mind thoroughly for_the extent of her encouragement .She knew he_must think her the most changeable of beings .Now that she was in full retreat, she_would not even perceive his hints of apossible correspondence .But in_that matter he_did athing that seemed to her at once delicate and romantic . he_made ago-between of Fanny .Fanny could_not keep the secret, and came and told her that night under atransparent pretext of needed advice ." Mr Snooks," said Fanny, "wants to write to_me .Fancy ! I had no idea .But should I let him ? " They talked it over long and earnestly, and Miss Winchelsea was careful to_keep the veil over her heart .She was already repenting his disregarded hints .Why should she not hear of him sometimes--painful though his name must_be to her ? Miss Winchelsea decided it might_be permitted, and Fanny kissed her good-night with unusual emotion .After she had gone Miss Winchelsea sat for_a_long_time at_the window of her little room


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