A Dream of Armageddon by H.G. Wells
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. i_was like aman who_might_have prevented the firing of amagazine .The time had gone . i_was no one; the vainest stripling with abadge counted for more than I .The crowd jostled us and bawled in_our ears; that accursed song deafened us; awoman shrieked at my lady because no badge was on her, and we two went back to our own place again, ruffled and insulted--my lady white and silent, and I a-quiver with rage .So furious was I, I_could_have quarrelled with her if I_could_have found one shade of accusation in her eyes .

"All my magnificence had gone from me .I walked up and down our rock cell, and outside was_the darkling sea and alight to_the southward that flared and passed and came again .

"' we_must get out of_this place,' I_said over and over .' I_have_made my choice, and i_will_have no hand in_these troubles . i_will_have nothing of_this war . we_have taken our lives out of all these things . this_is no refuge for_us . let_us go .'

" and_the next_day we were already in flight from_the war that covered the world .

"And all the rest was Flight--all the rest was Flight ."

He mused darkly .

" how_much was there of it ? "

he_made no answer .

" how_many days ? "

His face was white and drawn and_his hands were clenched . he_took no heed of_my curiosity .

I tried to draw him back to_his story with questions .

"Where did you go ? " I_said .

"When ? "

" when_you left Capri ."

"South-west," he_said, and glanced at me for asecond ."We went in aboat ."

"But i_should_have thought an aeroplane ? "

"They had_been seized ."

I questioned him no more .Presently i_thought he_was beginning again .He broke out in an argumentative monotone:

"But why should it be ? If, indeed, this battle, this slaughter and stress, _is life, why have we this craving for pleasure and beauty ? If there _is no refuge, if_there_is no place of peace, and if all our dreams of quiet places are afolly and asnare, why have we such dreams ? Surely it_was no ignoble cravings, no base intentions, had brought us to_this; it_was love had isolated us .Love had come to_me with her eyes and robed in her beauty, more glorious than all else in life, in_the very shape and colour of life, and summoned me away .I had silenced all the voices, I had answered all the questions--I had come to her .And suddenly there_was nothing but War and Death ! "

I had an inspiration ."After all," I_said, "it could_have_been only adream ."

"A dream ! " he cried, flaming upon me, "a dream--when, even now--"

for_the first time he became animated .afaint flush crept into his cheek .He raised his open hand and clenched it, and dropped it to_his knee .He spoke, looking away from me, and for all the rest of_the time he looked away ." we_are but phantoms," he_said, " and_the phantoms of phantoms, desires like cloud shadows and wills of straw that eddy in_the wind; the days pass, use and wont carry us through as atrain carries the shadow of_its lights--so be it ? But one_thing is real and certain, one_thing is no dream stuff, but eternal and enduring . it_is_the centre of_my life, and all other things about_it are subordinate or altogether vain .I loved her, that woman of adream .And she and I are dead together !

"A dream ! How can it be adream, when it drenched aliving life with unappeasable sorrow, when it makes all that I_have lived for and cared for worthless and unmeaning ?

"Until that very moment when she was killed I believed we had still achance of getting away," he_said ."All through_the night and morning that we sailed across the sea from Capri to Salerno we talked of escape .We were full of hope, and it clung about us to_the end, hope for_the life together we_should lead, out of it all, out_of_the battle and struggle, the wild and empty passions, the empty, arbitrary 'thou shalt' and 'thou shalt not' of_the world .We were uplifted, as_though our quest was aholy thing, as_though love for_one another was amission .. .

"Even when from_our boat we saw the fair face of_that great rock Capri-- already scarred and gashed by_the gun emplacements and hiding-places that were to_make it afastness--we reckoned nothing of_the imminent slaughter, though the fury of preparation hung about in puffs and clouds of dust at ahundred points amidst the grey; but, indeed, I_made atext of_that and talked .There, you_know, was_the rock, still beautiful for all its scars, with its countless windows and arches and ways, tier upon tier, for athousand feet, avast carving of grey, broken by vine-clad terraces, and lemon and orange groves, and masses of agave and prickly pear, and puffs of almond blossom .And out under the archway that_is built over the Piccola Marina other boats were coming; and as_we came round the cape and within sight of_the mainland, another little string of boats came into view, driving before_the wind towards the south-west .In alittle while amultitude had come out, the remoter just little specks of ultramarine in_the shadow of_the eastward cliff .

"' it_is love and reason,' I_said, 'fleeing from all this madness of war .'

"And though we presently saw asquadron of aeroplanes flying across the southern sky we_did_not heed it .There it_was--a line of little dots in_the sky--and then more, dotting the south-eastern horizon, and then still more, until all that quarter of_the sky was stippled with blue specks .Now they were all thin little strokes of blue, and now one and now amultitude would heel and catch the sun and become short flashes of light .They came, rising and falling and growing larger, like some huge flight of gulls or rooks or such-like birds, moving with amarvellous uniformity, and ever as_they drew nearer they spread over agreater width of sky .The southward wing flung itself in an arrow-headed cloud athwart the sun .And then suddenly they swept round to_the eastward and streamed eastward, growing smaller and smaller and clearer and clearer again until they vanished from_the sky .And after_that we noted to_the northward, and very high, Gresham's fighting machines hanging high over Naples like an evening swarm of gnats .

"It seemed to_have no more to_do with_us than aflight of birds .

"Even the mutter of guns far away in_the south-east seemed to_us to signify nothing .. .

" each_day, each dream after_that, we were still exalted, still seeking that refuge where we_might live and love .Fatigue had come upon us, pain and many distresses .For though we were dusty and stained by our toilsome tramping, and half starved, and with_the horror of_the dead men we had seen and_the flight of_the peasants--for very_soon agust of fighting swept up the peninsula-- with_these things haunting our minds it still resulted only in adeepening resolution to escape .Oh, but she was brave and patient ! She who had never faced hardship and exposure had courage for herself--and me .We went to and fro seeking an outlet, over acountry all commandeered and ransacked by_the gathering hosts of war .Always we went on foot .At first there were other fugitives, but we_did_not mingle with_them .Some escaped northward, some were caught in_the torrent of peasantry that swept along the main roads; many gave themselves into_the hands of_the soldiery and were sent northward . many_of_the men were impressed .But we kept away from_these things; we had brought no money to bribe apassage north, and I feared for_my lady at_the hands of_these conscript crowds .We had landed at Salerno, and we had_been turned back from Cava, and we had tried to cross towards Taranto by apass over Mount Alburno, but we had_been driven back for want of food, and so we had come down among_the marshes by Paestum, where those great temples stand alone .I had some vague idea that by Paestum it might_be possible to_find aboat or something, and take once more to sea .And there it was_the battle overtook us .

"A sort of soul-blindness had me .Plainly I could_see that we were being hemmed in; that_the great net of_that giant Warfare had us in its toils . many_times we had seen the levies that had come down from_the north going to and fro, and had come upon them in_the distance amidst the mountains making ways for_the ammunition and preparing the mounting of_the guns .Once we fancied they had fired at us, taking us for spies--at any rate ashot had gone shuddering over us . several_times we had hidden in woods from hovering aeroplanes .

"But all these things do_not matter now, these nights of flight and pain .. .We were in an open place near those great temples at Paestum, at last, on ablank stony place dotted with spiky bushes, empty and desolate and so flat that agrove of eucalyptus far away showed to_the feet of_its stems .How I_can_see it ! My lady was sitting down under abush resting alittle, for she was very weak and weary, and i_was standing up watching to_see if I_could tell the distance of_the firing that came and went .They were still, you_know, fighting far from each_other, with_these terrible new weapons that had never before been used: guns that_would carry beyond sight, and aeroplanes that_would do----What they_would do no man could foretell .

" I_knew that we were between_the two armies, and that_they drew together . I_knew we were in danger, and_that we_could_not stop there and rest !

"Though all those things were in my mind, they were in_the background .They seemed to_be affairs beyond our concern .Chiefly, i_was thinking of_my lady .An aching distress filled me . for_the first time she had owned herself beaten and had fallen a-weeping .Behind me I_could hear her sobbing, but i_would_not turn round to her because I_knew she had need of weeping, and had held herself so_far and so_long for_me . it_was well, i_thought, that she_would weep and rest, and then we_would toil on again, for I had no inkling of_the thing that hung so near .Even now I_can_see her as she sat there, her lovely hair upon her shoulder, can mark again the deepening hollow of her cheek .

"' if_we had parted,' she said, 'if I had let you go--'

"'No,' said I .'Even now I_do_not repent . i_will_not repent; I_made my choice,


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